drop me a lifeline
an all round protection for my family and assets and a complete protection of my future. promised by AIA. note it here. incase i need to refer back. haha.
anyways, school is perfectly normal today. with only erms, 3 hours of lecture? and my day ended, mentally. physically idling in the computer labs doing nothing.
:)
changed a blogskin. the any-o-how way. must give credits to several parties. haha.
do work time! ciaos~
from the lake, an apparition?
Monday, September 29, 2003
hmmm
feeling full now. is it air? or is it the food? haha. i don't know.
today started off fine. hmm.. i'm just wondering why am i pecked by a crow today? is it an omen? a signal? or do i just look tasty?
bleahs :P
same feelings today. same for every monday i suppose. mondays, the working day of the week. everything is new. must gear up for the things to do. glad that i am able to spare time now to cool my mind off those things and do something of my own. i think i was told to spare 1 hour of the day for my own use. hmm.. i wonder who told me that? haha.
yep yep. no matter wad. i'm going to stop here. nothing to do much really. i'm just going to sit and wait infront of the monitor and catch up with my book.
ciaoz~
hmm.. is that a piece of leaf on my head?
feeling full now. is it air? or is it the food? haha. i don't know.
today started off fine. hmm.. i'm just wondering why am i pecked by a crow today? is it an omen? a signal? or do i just look tasty?
bleahs :P
same feelings today. same for every monday i suppose. mondays, the working day of the week. everything is new. must gear up for the things to do. glad that i am able to spare time now to cool my mind off those things and do something of my own. i think i was told to spare 1 hour of the day for my own use. hmm.. i wonder who told me that? haha.
yep yep. no matter wad. i'm going to stop here. nothing to do much really. i'm just going to sit and wait infront of the monitor and catch up with my book.
ciaoz~
hmm.. is that a piece of leaf on my head?
Sunday, September 28, 2003
it's the book
haha. it's a strange feeling how a book can perpare you for the rest of the day. incredible.
great day. aimless day. don't want to do a thing today. and yes, i kept myself to my words. i did nothing towards the academic area of my life.
:)
tomorrow then i shalll start... a little too late? i don't think so. not for now.
make this a short one.
Zzz...
Where or When
haha. it's a strange feeling how a book can perpare you for the rest of the day. incredible.
great day. aimless day. don't want to do a thing today. and yes, i kept myself to my words. i did nothing towards the academic area of my life.
:)
tomorrow then i shalll start... a little too late? i don't think so. not for now.
make this a short one.
Zzz...
Where or When
great~
woke up to only find out that i have a backache and my left shoudler hurts. well, brand new morning, not going to bother about that when there's something more important. yup, it says 7.30am. i'm going for my morning jog. She's there too. haha. finally, this person that drives me to jogging came into my blog. don't ask me who is she. i don't know.
:)
went to get breakfast for selected members of my family. great morning. HEHEHE. *SMILES* although now, my both shoulders hurts.
no pool today. nothing today. so i just sat infront of my monitor and stare at it for quite some time and then yup, i was chatting my way. HEHEHE.
leg itchy lors. go play ball in the living room. i think i leaned too far back. the ball went flying and hit this buddha model and it feel. the pear-like shape thing cracked. gosh~ what am i to do when my father gets back? don't want to imagine. haha. just carefully place everything in place and hopefully the pear-like shape thing will just blend in on it's own. i don't care. it MUST do so.
tired lors. go and sleep. forget boiling water. one kettle that is full of water become empty with a layer of soot. ( do u call it soot? i dun noe but it's that black stuff la that u find on burger king's beef ) damn~ why am i so screwed up today? now i am in trouble. both, my mum and my dad, is going to kill me. how how how ?
*prays*
screwed up. you know you know? TOTALLY...
anyway, i'm winter for your info.
woke up to only find out that i have a backache and my left shoudler hurts. well, brand new morning, not going to bother about that when there's something more important. yup, it says 7.30am. i'm going for my morning jog. She's there too. haha. finally, this person that drives me to jogging came into my blog. don't ask me who is she. i don't know.
:)
went to get breakfast for selected members of my family. great morning. HEHEHE. *SMILES* although now, my both shoulders hurts.
no pool today. nothing today. so i just sat infront of my monitor and stare at it for quite some time and then yup, i was chatting my way. HEHEHE.
leg itchy lors. go play ball in the living room. i think i leaned too far back. the ball went flying and hit this buddha model and it feel. the pear-like shape thing cracked. gosh~ what am i to do when my father gets back? don't want to imagine. haha. just carefully place everything in place and hopefully the pear-like shape thing will just blend in on it's own. i don't care. it MUST do so.
tired lors. go and sleep. forget boiling water. one kettle that is full of water become empty with a layer of soot. ( do u call it soot? i dun noe but it's that black stuff la that u find on burger king's beef ) damn~ why am i so screwed up today? now i am in trouble. both, my mum and my dad, is going to kill me. how how how ?
*prays*
screwed up. you know you know? TOTALLY...
anyway, i'm winter for your info.
Friday, September 26, 2003
sweeeeee ... weeee weeep
You're Most Like The Season Winter ...
You're often depicted as the cold, distant season.
But you're incredibly intelligent, mature and
Independant. You have an air of power around
you - and that can sometimes scare people off.
You're complex, and get hurt easily - so you
rarely let people in if you can help it. You
can be somewhat of a loner, but just as easily
you could be the leader of many. You Tend to be
negative, and hard to relate to, but you give
off a relaxed image despite being insecure -
and secretly many people long to be like you,
not knowing how deep the Winter season really
is.
Well done... You're the most inspirational of
seasons :)
?? Which Season Are You ??
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You're Most Like The Season Winter ...
You're often depicted as the cold, distant season.
But you're incredibly intelligent, mature and
Independant. You have an air of power around
you - and that can sometimes scare people off.
You're complex, and get hurt easily - so you
rarely let people in if you can help it. You
can be somewhat of a loner, but just as easily
you could be the leader of many. You Tend to be
negative, and hard to relate to, but you give
off a relaxed image despite being insecure -
and secretly many people long to be like you,
not knowing how deep the Winter season really
is.
Well done... You're the most inspirational of
seasons :)
?? Which Season Are You ??
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whatever~
seriously, i don't care anymore. why? there's no why. i just don't want to bother about it no more. help you? help yourself.
:)
been days since i last posted ya? too busy and too tired lohs. what else~ see this screen also lazy to blog arhs... maybe i shld consider a change of skin liaoz.. then got the drive to blog... haha... do you think so ?
nothing much these few days. all sorts of feelings have been experienced. irratated, screwed up, happy, glad, sad, frustrated, u name it... i think i've been thru it this few days...
whatever lahs~ don't want to think so much. i cannot imagine.
HAHA
:)
erks... you know you know? ERKS...
seriously, i don't care anymore. why? there's no why. i just don't want to bother about it no more. help you? help yourself.
:)
been days since i last posted ya? too busy and too tired lohs. what else~ see this screen also lazy to blog arhs... maybe i shld consider a change of skin liaoz.. then got the drive to blog... haha... do you think so ?
nothing much these few days. all sorts of feelings have been experienced. irratated, screwed up, happy, glad, sad, frustrated, u name it... i think i've been thru it this few days...
whatever lahs~ don't want to think so much. i cannot imagine.
HAHA
:)
erks... you know you know? ERKS...
Monday, September 22, 2003
nah, definitely not for me
haha. things just gets tougher nowadays. i decided to just let it off with a good laughter.
:)
what can i say? first i did a test and the picture below is given to me. haha. and i am rushing through all my projects. sloppy work i can feel. yet, nothing motivates me for the better of everything. where's my motivation ? *searching hard*
school as usual. went to help a friend with his economics presentation. damn. what he did... it's wrong. but i can feel the tension building up within him. so i just answered his questions, helped him through. if not, i kept quiet. sorry. but later, *thank god* , his presentation is rather a good effort. haha.
nothing much la. many things to do. little time. many datelines to meet, little time.
HAHA.
:)
don't touch me, i'm fragile.
haha. things just gets tougher nowadays. i decided to just let it off with a good laughter.
:)
what can i say? first i did a test and the picture below is given to me. haha. and i am rushing through all my projects. sloppy work i can feel. yet, nothing motivates me for the better of everything. where's my motivation ? *searching hard*
school as usual. went to help a friend with his economics presentation. damn. what he did... it's wrong. but i can feel the tension building up within him. so i just answered his questions, helped him through. if not, i kept quiet. sorry. but later, *thank god* , his presentation is rather a good effort. haha.
nothing much la. many things to do. little time. many datelines to meet, little time.
HAHA.
:)
don't touch me, i'm fragile.
what else can i say~
You're LeBranc! A competitive person, though times
do get you down, you get right back up.
Which FFX-2 Character are you?
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You're LeBranc! A competitive person, though times
do get you down, you get right back up.
Which FFX-2 Character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
Sunday, September 21, 2003
Saturday, September 20, 2003
it's all logic
WHY STUDENTS ALWAYS FAILED IN THEIR EXAM ????
It's not the fault of the student if he fails, because the year has ONLY 365' days.
Typical academic year for a student.
Sundays-52, Sundays in a year. You know Sundays are for rest.Day left 313.
Summer holidays-50 where weather is very hot and difficult to study. Days left 263.
8 hours daily sleep-means 130 days. Days left 141.
1 hour for daily playing- (good for health) means 15 days. Days left 126.
2 hours daily for food & other delicacies (chew properly & eat) –means 30 days. Days left 96.
1 hours for talking (man is a social animal)- means 15 days.
Days left 81. Exam days per year at least 35 days…… Days left 46.
Quarterly, half yearly and festival (holidays)-40 days. Balance 6 days.
For sickness at least 3 days. Remaining days 3.
10.Movies and functions at least 2 days. 1 day left.
11.That 1 day is your birthday. "How can you study at that day?"
Balance days 0
"HOW can a student PASS his /her exams?????????"
WHY STUDENTS ALWAYS FAILED IN THEIR EXAM ????
It's not the fault of the student if he fails, because the year has ONLY 365' days.
Typical academic year for a student.
Sundays-52, Sundays in a year. You know Sundays are for rest.Day left 313.
Summer holidays-50 where weather is very hot and difficult to study. Days left 263.
8 hours daily sleep-means 130 days. Days left 141.
1 hour for daily playing- (good for health) means 15 days. Days left 126.
2 hours daily for food & other delicacies (chew properly & eat) –means 30 days. Days left 96.
1 hours for talking (man is a social animal)- means 15 days.
Days left 81. Exam days per year at least 35 days…… Days left 46.
Quarterly, half yearly and festival (holidays)-40 days. Balance 6 days.
For sickness at least 3 days. Remaining days 3.
10.Movies and functions at least 2 days. 1 day left.
11.That 1 day is your birthday. "How can you study at that day?"
Balance days 0
"HOW can a student PASS his /her exams?????????"
Friday, September 19, 2003
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | Low |
| Schizoid: | Low |
| Schizotypal: | Moderate |
| Antisocial: | Low |
| Borderline: | Low |
| Histrionic: | Low |
| Narcissistic: | Moderate |
| Avoidant: | Low |
| Dependent: | Low |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | Low |
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- | |
Thursday, September 18, 2003
problems problems problems
yep. problems. so many of them running in and out of my brain. crushing all those precious cells inside. hmm, problems. that's what makes life meaningful ?
face it. problem based learning. haha. maybe that term doesn't apply to this case. but whatever i do, it's always wrong lehs. and that creates more problem. and then solve it. and then new problems arises. get the picture?
it rained when i left for school. thank you god.
realise i returned those very precious knowledge to my teachers. grammar, spelling of words, sentence construction, all of them infact. gosh~
tired.
eventually, i believe,
it will fall on me.
yep. problems. so many of them running in and out of my brain. crushing all those precious cells inside. hmm, problems. that's what makes life meaningful ?
face it. problem based learning. haha. maybe that term doesn't apply to this case. but whatever i do, it's always wrong lehs. and that creates more problem. and then solve it. and then new problems arises. get the picture?
it rained when i left for school. thank you god.
realise i returned those very precious knowledge to my teachers. grammar, spelling of words, sentence construction, all of them infact. gosh~
tired.
eventually, i believe,
it will fall on me.
Wednesday, September 17, 2003
cold
walking down the stairs of the bridge. i was beside you. peeping through the corners of my eyes. couldn't get much out of that man. wasted. then you slip and you almost fell. you hold on to me. wee weep. i asked if you are alright. you just nodded your head and left.
i am cold today.
*shiver*
sorry for bullying you today.
cool it ~
walking down the stairs of the bridge. i was beside you. peeping through the corners of my eyes. couldn't get much out of that man. wasted. then you slip and you almost fell. you hold on to me. wee weep. i asked if you are alright. you just nodded your head and left.
i am cold today.
*shiver*
sorry for bullying you today.
cool it ~
remember
Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you planned:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.
Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you planned:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.
Sunday, September 14, 2003
it's those datelines
yes yes yes, i know i know. i ought to be enjoying this precious weekend after 5 days of school. but it's those datelines for the projects that's ruining my weekends. if poly life is almost similar to that of working life, i would rather be working. at least i get paid. haha.
i just finished editing my communication skills questionnaire. took me quite long a time and i feel that i didn't do a great job editing. but i guess i have done my best. if you think u can do better, please, do so. correct me. it won't hurt, not even a little bit.
:)
wake up early today with a motive. muahaha. i went to jog! great morning with the combination of sunshine and the refreshing morning breeze. air has never felt so fresh!the view of everything changed! morning, afternoon and evening. each with it's own distinctive characteristics. the people too. haha. *hint hint* healthy way of living! yea!
wah. fatigue after jogging. came up for a cup of tea without milk and fried bee hoon, accompanied with one fish cake and one fried chicken drumstick. didn't manage to finish it all. i nv like breakfast. bleahz :P
haha. went out to do my homework and for my lunch. just hope that when i am travelling, the word '' fatigue '' doesn't show on my face. still, i am feeling tired and sick though. gosh~
on the way back, i was reading through my economics notes and thinking about my IISO project. suddenly i lost consciousness. haha. fell asleep sia! and missed the stop i am supposed to alight. then have to take the bus back. haha. this time i stayed awake!
had dinner and watched some singer ,that is very popular just because he wears that suit of his for 30 years, sings on his debut tv show. nice songs and my mother was going '' wah shiok shiok! '' haha~ hmm, why must he wears only suit whenever he sings on tv? nv see him in tee and jeans~ and he's so popular! haha.
haha.
my life.
feverish.
as lonely as it can be
yes yes yes, i know i know. i ought to be enjoying this precious weekend after 5 days of school. but it's those datelines for the projects that's ruining my weekends. if poly life is almost similar to that of working life, i would rather be working. at least i get paid. haha.
i just finished editing my communication skills questionnaire. took me quite long a time and i feel that i didn't do a great job editing. but i guess i have done my best. if you think u can do better, please, do so. correct me. it won't hurt, not even a little bit.
:)
wake up early today with a motive. muahaha. i went to jog! great morning with the combination of sunshine and the refreshing morning breeze. air has never felt so fresh!the view of everything changed! morning, afternoon and evening. each with it's own distinctive characteristics. the people too. haha. *hint hint* healthy way of living! yea!
wah. fatigue after jogging. came up for a cup of tea without milk and fried bee hoon, accompanied with one fish cake and one fried chicken drumstick. didn't manage to finish it all. i nv like breakfast. bleahz :P
haha. went out to do my homework and for my lunch. just hope that when i am travelling, the word '' fatigue '' doesn't show on my face. still, i am feeling tired and sick though. gosh~
on the way back, i was reading through my economics notes and thinking about my IISO project. suddenly i lost consciousness. haha. fell asleep sia! and missed the stop i am supposed to alight. then have to take the bus back. haha. this time i stayed awake!
had dinner and watched some singer ,that is very popular just because he wears that suit of his for 30 years, sings on his debut tv show. nice songs and my mother was going '' wah shiok shiok! '' haha~ hmm, why must he wears only suit whenever he sings on tv? nv see him in tee and jeans~ and he's so popular! haha.
haha.
my life.
feverish.
as lonely as it can be
Saturday, September 13, 2003
is it really true~
haha. i never place any bets.*holy ring above* but! my father did. haha. okok not my decisions. but who cares? if he wins. duh~
feeling real sick today. maybe is the heat? but i doubt so. don't really know the reason. just that i'm feeling sick. don't want to go out or what so ever.
despite all my complex feelings, i found some entertainment on my own. played some games, read books and watch the tv. haha. like the usual stuffs. *sigh*
hey! i studied today! don't know why but i'm feeling abit no life. study, play, hang out. yucks. is this really the life i want ? this aimless, alone so called life? hmm...
in life, there's many i should, i shouldn't. when will i ever make the right decisions? i am beginning to see myself as someone who doesn't know how to differentiate between the black and white. does 1+1 really give me 2 ? *doubtful look*
must things turn out to be this way? starts off with only one short message via the phone. stop grinning at me! *scowls* i know i typed something wrong. i know it. but. is it really true? are you feeling what i think you are feeling? i don't dare to ask.
CHESTNUT TREE (the Honesty) -
of unusual beauty, does not want to impress, well-developed
sense of justice, vivacious, interested, a born diplomat,
but irritates easily and sensitive in company, often due to a
lack of self confidence, acts sometimes superior,
feels not understood loves only once,
has difficulties in finding a partner.
as lonely as one could get
haha. i never place any bets.*holy ring above* but! my father did. haha. okok not my decisions. but who cares? if he wins. duh~
feeling real sick today. maybe is the heat? but i doubt so. don't really know the reason. just that i'm feeling sick. don't want to go out or what so ever.
despite all my complex feelings, i found some entertainment on my own. played some games, read books and watch the tv. haha. like the usual stuffs. *sigh*
hey! i studied today! don't know why but i'm feeling abit no life. study, play, hang out. yucks. is this really the life i want ? this aimless, alone so called life? hmm...
in life, there's many i should, i shouldn't. when will i ever make the right decisions? i am beginning to see myself as someone who doesn't know how to differentiate between the black and white. does 1+1 really give me 2 ? *doubtful look*
must things turn out to be this way? starts off with only one short message via the phone. stop grinning at me! *scowls* i know i typed something wrong. i know it. but. is it really true? are you feeling what i think you are feeling? i don't dare to ask.
CHESTNUT TREE (the Honesty) -
of unusual beauty, does not want to impress, well-developed
sense of justice, vivacious, interested, a born diplomat,
but irritates easily and sensitive in company, often due to a
lack of self confidence, acts sometimes superior,
feels not understood loves only once,
has difficulties in finding a partner.
as lonely as one could get
Friday, September 12, 2003
flip flip
flipping through the coloured pages of this particular thin book. with hopes that it can earn me an income, i read thoroughly. what is this book? a FREE copy of Soccer King. Weekly Guide. it cost S$3.50 and is published every friday! haha. very user friendly i must say. god damn the tips they give! make me doubt. keke.
hey! betting is BAD! dun ever start if you haven't. anyway this FREE copy is give by my mother. she knows me best! doesn't she? haha. (ok la, maybe one or two of you beautiful people too.)
today arhs~ okok lor. keke. started with the giving out of my Computer Systems test paper and going through it. i passed! *thank you* haha. lessons as usual. not very happening though. tease him again like usual. but i definitely hopes he will get her. Good Lucks! (hey! you didn't wave good bye like she did! *gentle reminder that you have friends here!*)
*prays* will i win? should i place my bets? haha. i don't know! gosh~
getting emotional
flipping through the coloured pages of this particular thin book. with hopes that it can earn me an income, i read thoroughly. what is this book? a FREE copy of Soccer King. Weekly Guide. it cost S$3.50 and is published every friday! haha. very user friendly i must say. god damn the tips they give! make me doubt. keke.
hey! betting is BAD! dun ever start if you haven't. anyway this FREE copy is give by my mother. she knows me best! doesn't she? haha. (ok la, maybe one or two of you beautiful people too.)
today arhs~ okok lor. keke. started with the giving out of my Computer Systems test paper and going through it. i passed! *thank you* haha. lessons as usual. not very happening though. tease him again like usual. but i definitely hopes he will get her. Good Lucks! (hey! you didn't wave good bye like she did! *gentle reminder that you have friends here!*)
*prays* will i win? should i place my bets? haha. i don't know! gosh~
getting emotional
Thursday, September 11, 2003
messy
everything's getting messy already. haha. face it man. a couple of projects in hand, and the dateline is forever so short. my room got tidy and untidy again. things were laying around again. how to invite people over ? gosh~
school is fun today!
had about four hours of the SAME lesson. what have i got to say ? it stinks! god damn it. and furthur more, she went to complain. i believe she is the only one doing so. what is it that we have done to make her feel so negative? just because we have more chinese? i doubt so. serious~
crack a number of jokes today (LOL!) and the rest of the things went smoothly. i supposed. assignments and all sorts of outline were completed. now is the teacher's turn to meddle with our work. do i care ? no.
almost a repetition of yesterday. it rained! and almost exactly the time when i am heading home. got up the bus. as usual, abit squeezy. got down the bus, rain started. drenched lors. hais. what have i got to say ?
slept and wake up about now, and blogging. haha. i guess i am trying my best to do this everyday. *prays* i might be getting a FLU. look hard. it's FLU. not SARS.
i must really say that the person who is affected with this SARS thingy is definitely a loser. singapore, always the first. the first to impose something really effective. the first to be affected after they have predicted that SARS might rise again. so hurting. haha. anyway... _|_ SARS...
what have i done wrong today? :(
everything's getting messy already. haha. face it man. a couple of projects in hand, and the dateline is forever so short. my room got tidy and untidy again. things were laying around again. how to invite people over ? gosh~
school is fun today!
had about four hours of the SAME lesson. what have i got to say ? it stinks! god damn it. and furthur more, she went to complain. i believe she is the only one doing so. what is it that we have done to make her feel so negative? just because we have more chinese? i doubt so. serious~
crack a number of jokes today (LOL!) and the rest of the things went smoothly. i supposed. assignments and all sorts of outline were completed. now is the teacher's turn to meddle with our work. do i care ? no.
almost a repetition of yesterday. it rained! and almost exactly the time when i am heading home. got up the bus. as usual, abit squeezy. got down the bus, rain started. drenched lors. hais. what have i got to say ?
slept and wake up about now, and blogging. haha. i guess i am trying my best to do this everyday. *prays* i might be getting a FLU. look hard. it's FLU. not SARS.
i must really say that the person who is affected with this SARS thingy is definitely a loser. singapore, always the first. the first to impose something really effective. the first to be affected after they have predicted that SARS might rise again. so hurting. haha. anyway... _|_ SARS...
what have i done wrong today? :(
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
holland V
remembered someone tell me today's episode will be great! as the minutes ticked by, i rushed home and watch it, fortunately.
today's episode is a blessing. with jingjing bed-ridden, kinda hurting wors. her heartbeat stopped twice but the heart beat returned to normal and her BP went up as soon as xiao xin appeared. a practice of singapore drama series, a soothing music will be played as the flashback between the couple played on the 29'' screen. jingjing is still in a coma, refusal to wake up. guess this is what makes this show worth the watch. haha! ( for selected episodes only and i apologise for the bad description )
yet, another episode with lovers. haha. what to do~
oh ya! Turn left turn right starts today! let's just watch and see if i can catch it. keke.
a movie about lovers.
bleahz.
sighing off...
getting emotional...
remembered someone tell me today's episode will be great! as the minutes ticked by, i rushed home and watch it, fortunately.
today's episode is a blessing. with jingjing bed-ridden, kinda hurting wors. her heartbeat stopped twice but the heart beat returned to normal and her BP went up as soon as xiao xin appeared. a practice of singapore drama series, a soothing music will be played as the flashback between the couple played on the 29'' screen. jingjing is still in a coma, refusal to wake up. guess this is what makes this show worth the watch. haha! ( for selected episodes only and i apologise for the bad description )
yet, another episode with lovers. haha. what to do~
oh ya! Turn left turn right starts today! let's just watch and see if i can catch it. keke.
a movie about lovers.
bleahz.
sighing off...
getting emotional...
alone
alone in a dark room with only the monitor's glares. the wind from the fan seems like a breeze from behind. carrying the loneliness within, i typed as the blinking line moved on.
today's lesson is from 2pm to 4pm. upon telling people, they gave me the '' you are so lucky '' tone or expression. is it really so ?
woke up with a timid heart. afraid to face what is installed for me today. would i meet a car crash? or a bus accident? or the bus simply just broke down right infront of the SAFRA...
haha! worrying do me no good. i decided to face the day! i skipped all meals (only fed on water) and head for school. school was alright, the lecture was confusing as usual. but i think i would be able to get the hand of it if i do the tutorial. no worries!
the light dims. the air dampens. rain starts to fall. make fun of him today. and saw his girl. no comments! haha. went for a pasta lunch at pastamania! wouldn't dare to say the food is not nice. *clap clap* for the one at the counter taking orders. she would need a microphone though. haha. played games and went home. nothing much to talk about here.
hmm, thinking back about today on the bus. saw many couples today. ( my blessings. haha! ) the hauntings of loneliness returned. i choose to avoid and meddled with my accounting lecture notes. it just went to my subconsciousness, popping out unneccessarily. kinda hurting but i guess i would just live on with it.
it's my life.
HAHA
:)
aim for perfection. even if it's going to be hard on me.
towards me, she's cold.
alone in a dark room with only the monitor's glares. the wind from the fan seems like a breeze from behind. carrying the loneliness within, i typed as the blinking line moved on.
today's lesson is from 2pm to 4pm. upon telling people, they gave me the '' you are so lucky '' tone or expression. is it really so ?
woke up with a timid heart. afraid to face what is installed for me today. would i meet a car crash? or a bus accident? or the bus simply just broke down right infront of the SAFRA...
haha! worrying do me no good. i decided to face the day! i skipped all meals (only fed on water) and head for school. school was alright, the lecture was confusing as usual. but i think i would be able to get the hand of it if i do the tutorial. no worries!
the light dims. the air dampens. rain starts to fall. make fun of him today. and saw his girl. no comments! haha. went for a pasta lunch at pastamania! wouldn't dare to say the food is not nice. *clap clap* for the one at the counter taking orders. she would need a microphone though. haha. played games and went home. nothing much to talk about here.
hmm, thinking back about today on the bus. saw many couples today. ( my blessings. haha! ) the hauntings of loneliness returned. i choose to avoid and meddled with my accounting lecture notes. it just went to my subconsciousness, popping out unneccessarily. kinda hurting but i guess i would just live on with it.
it's my life.
HAHA
:)
aim for perfection. even if it's going to be hard on me.
towards me, she's cold.
Monday, September 08, 2003
shagged
in school's lab now. haha. very bored. just finished a couple of assignments. :) glad to be able to complete it fast. anyway, something struck my mind and here goes...
Some say the world will end in fire;
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To know that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.
in school's lab now. haha. very bored. just finished a couple of assignments. :) glad to be able to complete it fast. anyway, something struck my mind and here goes...
Some say the world will end in fire;
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To know that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.
Sunday, September 07, 2003
bad hangover
argh ! everything's upside down when i woke up today. and i am late for my soccer game. haha.
great weather for the game.*sarcaism* so freaking warm! the sun is shining so brightly. where are the clouds ?!
had Mcdonalds at bedok. nice foood. i guess i am just starved after the game. hey! i never had my breakfast lors. so cannot blame lars, hungry. Duh~
went home and decided to get some rest and do abit of studying. looking forward to 7.30pm when there is this Singapore Hit Awards 2003 showing at channel 8. though i know the results, but i still wanna see how flat steph sun and how jay zhou smile. haha!
towards me, you are still cold...
i tried hard...
let the blinking line stops here.
argh ! everything's upside down when i woke up today. and i am late for my soccer game. haha.
great weather for the game.*sarcaism* so freaking warm! the sun is shining so brightly. where are the clouds ?!
had Mcdonalds at bedok. nice foood. i guess i am just starved after the game. hey! i never had my breakfast lors. so cannot blame lars, hungry. Duh~
went home and decided to get some rest and do abit of studying. looking forward to 7.30pm when there is this Singapore Hit Awards 2003 showing at channel 8. though i know the results, but i still wanna see how flat steph sun and how jay zhou smile. haha!
towards me, you are still cold...
i tried hard...
let the blinking line stops here.
Saturday, September 06, 2003
yep yep
today is the day, i won't be able to do my own stuffs. why? simply because i have to go down to my dad shop's opening ceremony. got to go help him ya... it's gonna be a great day~~~
yet, i have no appetite for breakfast. ponders, why am i skipping my most important meal of the day ? *sigh*
anyway, got to go now. blog again later? perhaps perhaps perhaps...
aim for perfection. even if it's going to be hard on myself.
yet, towards me, you are cold...
today is the day, i won't be able to do my own stuffs. why? simply because i have to go down to my dad shop's opening ceremony. got to go help him ya... it's gonna be a great day~~~
yet, i have no appetite for breakfast. ponders, why am i skipping my most important meal of the day ? *sigh*
anyway, got to go now. blog again later? perhaps perhaps perhaps...
aim for perfection. even if it's going to be hard on myself.
yet, towards me, you are cold...
Friday, September 05, 2003
What is marketing?
You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say, "I am very rich. Marry me!"
That's Direct Marketing
You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a gorgeous girl. One of your friends goes up to her and pointing at you says,"He's very rich. Marry him."
That's Advertising.
You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and get her telephone number. The next day you call and say,
"Hi, I'm very rich. Marry me."
That's Telemarketing.
You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl. You get up and straighten your tie; you walk up to her and pour her a drink. You open the door for her, pick up her bag after she drops it, offer her a ride, and then say, "By the way, I'm very rich "Will you marry me?"
That's Public Relations.
You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl. She walks up to you and says, "You are very rich..."
That's Brand Recognition.
You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say, "I'm rich. Marry me" She gives you a nice hard slap on
your face.
That's Customer Feedback
You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say, "I am very rich. Marry me!"
That's Direct Marketing
You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a gorgeous girl. One of your friends goes up to her and pointing at you says,"He's very rich. Marry him."
That's Advertising.
You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and get her telephone number. The next day you call and say,
"Hi, I'm very rich. Marry me."
That's Telemarketing.
You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl. You get up and straighten your tie; you walk up to her and pour her a drink. You open the door for her, pick up her bag after she drops it, offer her a ride, and then say, "By the way, I'm very rich "Will you marry me?"
That's Public Relations.
You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl. She walks up to you and says, "You are very rich..."
That's Brand Recognition.
You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say, "I'm rich. Marry me" She gives you a nice hard slap on
your face.
That's Customer Feedback
Thursday, September 04, 2003
sigh
i am not sure what has gotten over me. i actually slept at around 2am and woke up at 6.30am. and worse still, i went to jog! the last time that i jog was so long ago. so long, that i couldn't even remember. i guess i am really troubled. i just could not get to sleep. whenever, i am unhappy or troubled or plainly just confused, i will go and jog. keke...
bon appetite! bleah... i am not interested in my breakfast. i merely stared at the two words printed on the brown bag '' burger king '' and i walked away. i took out '' SKIPPY '' and start applying on my bread. gosh~
went for some graduation ceremony at Temasek Convention Centre ( TP ). and there is this particular speech that caught my attention:"when the EZ-link technology started, i boarded the bus and pressed my wallet against the device. it went '' beep beep''. now, i pressed my wallet against the device yet, there was no '' beep beep ''. it went '' beep '' ... '' and the speech continues. wonderful start for a speech i must say. grabbed my attention successfully. took me awhile to realise what he is trying to say. haha.
went for my class representative's chalet. i shall not make any comments on that event. but! Thanks for everything! Great food!
that's my day, sigh...
tired arhs, shall stop here. bad mood.
if i never spoke a word, would you think i am a mute ?
everything i do, there must be a perfect reason behind it.
always think before saying something. it hurts even when i don't feel it.
towards me, you are cold...
i am not sure what has gotten over me. i actually slept at around 2am and woke up at 6.30am. and worse still, i went to jog! the last time that i jog was so long ago. so long, that i couldn't even remember. i guess i am really troubled. i just could not get to sleep. whenever, i am unhappy or troubled or plainly just confused, i will go and jog. keke...
bon appetite! bleah... i am not interested in my breakfast. i merely stared at the two words printed on the brown bag '' burger king '' and i walked away. i took out '' SKIPPY '' and start applying on my bread. gosh~
went for some graduation ceremony at Temasek Convention Centre ( TP ). and there is this particular speech that caught my attention:"when the EZ-link technology started, i boarded the bus and pressed my wallet against the device. it went '' beep beep''. now, i pressed my wallet against the device yet, there was no '' beep beep ''. it went '' beep '' ... '' and the speech continues. wonderful start for a speech i must say. grabbed my attention successfully. took me awhile to realise what he is trying to say. haha.
went for my class representative's chalet. i shall not make any comments on that event. but! Thanks for everything! Great food!
that's my day, sigh...
tired arhs, shall stop here. bad mood.
if i never spoke a word, would you think i am a mute ?
everything i do, there must be a perfect reason behind it.
always think before saying something. it hurts even when i don't feel it.
towards me, you are cold...
Wednesday, September 03, 2003
Monday, September 01, 2003
not yours
I am not yours, not lost in you,
Not lost, although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea.
You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright,
Yet I am I, who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light.
Oh plunge me deep in love.
put out my senses, leave me deaf and blind.
Swept by the tempest of your love,
A taper in a rushing wind.
Even a stalk of grass have its mission for existing.
People know it's there.
What is my mission?
make my presence felt
I am not yours, not lost in you,
Not lost, although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea.
You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright,
Yet I am I, who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light.
Oh plunge me deep in love.
put out my senses, leave me deaf and blind.
Swept by the tempest of your love,
A taper in a rushing wind.
Even a stalk of grass have its mission for existing.
People know it's there.
What is my mission?
make my presence felt
be strong
was tidying up my room, came across this piece that i wrote... thinking i should share this with everyone... if there is... haha... there is right? *knock knock*
I am calmer now. That phase has died down to a whisper i shan't bother heed. My breath escapes in unrythmic puffs. I am blinking too much. But i am calmer now. That is what matters. So perhaps i am in love. I should face it. It stares me in the face. Smiling even. To see it as it is insanity, and to turn away more so. I am insane in whichever way i think. Perhaps that is what love is. Euphoric Insanity. A kind of blissful dimensia. It makes sense i think. But i guess i am in no position to deliberate sense. Haha.
I will stop typing now. And then i'll dream about her somemore . Yes. I see her image so clearly. Not distorted in any way. Not like an image in a pond. With ripples. More like an image in a mirror. An old mirror your grandma kept and looked in as she brushed her hair through every night. White and pink. Adorned with lace and ribbon. See? that's soooo unneeded. I know. But yet i typed it. Its the stuff that i type about when i'm lost in love. Nostalgia and unneeded romanticism. I think i have accepted the fact that i'm in love. That's good. Sigh. The picture is still in my hands... Its edges curled and the picture yellow with age... Its amazing that i have it. We are never allowed such things in here. It's all white. And everything's so plain. Nothing like this. Nothing like my love...
I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her.
I laugh to myself. They will do their usual spot checks. Like they always do every week. But then i'll keep it safe. Safe in my arms. In my cradled fingers. With me. Only me. My love will never be out of the safety of my hands. My knuckles turn white as i clench the picture in my palm.
The purple and blue capsules are still beside the table. I won't eat them. I hate those stuffs. I never like them and never will. They taste sour and bitter and the same time. I can't swallow... So i chew... and my tongue taste horrible in my mouth for hours after. But then i remember what happened the last time. I shudder in the thought. ARH! . . . stop . . . argh . . . i must eat them. I will not allow them to push their hands down my throat. I don't need the medicine. really. seriously. why can't they see that? well i'm sure she does. Doesn't she. She smiles back at me, like she always do. She's never mad at me. I am so blessed. Thank you god. The siren blares overhead and i know it is time to return. Maybe tomorrow i shall play chess... or just lie down and watch television... They have many things around here to do. I smile slowly to myself, whatever i do doesn't matter. I have my sweetheart with me. I slip her slowly carefully into my shirt pocket. And make my way back to my room. I am shivering. They say it happens whenever you don't take your medicine. I can hear their arbitrary voices rattle on and on. HA.! what do they know. I'm in love... I'm in love... I'm in love... I'm in love... I'm in love... I'm in love... I'm in love... I'm in love...
" strange thing it was , just dropped dead right there ... "
" sad. "
" don't matter. Just means his cell is empty. God knows we need more room. "
" i know... still.. why anyway? why did it happen? "
" dumb fucks... don't even know what's good for you... stopped taking his pills... His blood pressure was through the roof... "
" he got any family? "
" nah. . . not that we know of... But we found a picture in his pocket... "
" who's ? "
" haha. some movie star whore from the 60s... No idea how he got it in... "
" hm.. well though.. "
" yeah.. he was gripping it so hard.. had to pry his fingers off. dumb fuck. he's dead and we still had to get 2 guys to open his fist "
" haha. . . "
" he was smiling... spooky shit if you ask me... "
" haha.. weird ass.. you'd think he's in love or something... "
" haha.... "
______________________________________________________________________________________________
something really bad must happen to me, in order for people to notice me. if not, i guess i will be just so alone in this freaking big world that i am living in.
nobody will feel my presence.
*poof*
was tidying up my room, came across this piece that i wrote... thinking i should share this with everyone... if there is... haha... there is right? *knock knock*
I am calmer now. That phase has died down to a whisper i shan't bother heed. My breath escapes in unrythmic puffs. I am blinking too much. But i am calmer now. That is what matters. So perhaps i am in love. I should face it. It stares me in the face. Smiling even. To see it as it is insanity, and to turn away more so. I am insane in whichever way i think. Perhaps that is what love is. Euphoric Insanity. A kind of blissful dimensia. It makes sense i think. But i guess i am in no position to deliberate sense. Haha.
I will stop typing now. And then i'll dream about her somemore . Yes. I see her image so clearly. Not distorted in any way. Not like an image in a pond. With ripples. More like an image in a mirror. An old mirror your grandma kept and looked in as she brushed her hair through every night. White and pink. Adorned with lace and ribbon. See? that's soooo unneeded. I know. But yet i typed it. Its the stuff that i type about when i'm lost in love. Nostalgia and unneeded romanticism. I think i have accepted the fact that i'm in love. That's good. Sigh. The picture is still in my hands... Its edges curled and the picture yellow with age... Its amazing that i have it. We are never allowed such things in here. It's all white. And everything's so plain. Nothing like this. Nothing like my love...
I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her.
I laugh to myself. They will do their usual spot checks. Like they always do every week. But then i'll keep it safe. Safe in my arms. In my cradled fingers. With me. Only me. My love will never be out of the safety of my hands. My knuckles turn white as i clench the picture in my palm.
The purple and blue capsules are still beside the table. I won't eat them. I hate those stuffs. I never like them and never will. They taste sour and bitter and the same time. I can't swallow... So i chew... and my tongue taste horrible in my mouth for hours after. But then i remember what happened the last time. I shudder in the thought. ARH! . . . stop . . . argh . . . i must eat them. I will not allow them to push their hands down my throat. I don't need the medicine. really. seriously. why can't they see that? well i'm sure she does. Doesn't she. She smiles back at me, like she always do. She's never mad at me. I am so blessed. Thank you god. The siren blares overhead and i know it is time to return. Maybe tomorrow i shall play chess... or just lie down and watch television... They have many things around here to do. I smile slowly to myself, whatever i do doesn't matter. I have my sweetheart with me. I slip her slowly carefully into my shirt pocket. And make my way back to my room. I am shivering. They say it happens whenever you don't take your medicine. I can hear their arbitrary voices rattle on and on. HA.! what do they know. I'm in love... I'm in love... I'm in love... I'm in love... I'm in love... I'm in love... I'm in love... I'm in love...
" strange thing it was , just dropped dead right there ... "
" sad. "
" don't matter. Just means his cell is empty. God knows we need more room. "
" i know... still.. why anyway? why did it happen? "
" dumb fucks... don't even know what's good for you... stopped taking his pills... His blood pressure was through the roof... "
" he got any family? "
" nah. . . not that we know of... But we found a picture in his pocket... "
" who's ? "
" haha. some movie star whore from the 60s... No idea how he got it in... "
" hm.. well though.. "
" yeah.. he was gripping it so hard.. had to pry his fingers off. dumb fuck. he's dead and we still had to get 2 guys to open his fist "
" haha. . . "
" he was smiling... spooky shit if you ask me... "
" haha.. weird ass.. you'd think he's in love or something... "
" haha.... "
______________________________________________________________________________________________
something really bad must happen to me, in order for people to notice me. if not, i guess i will be just so alone in this freaking big world that i am living in.
nobody will feel my presence.
*poof*
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