To live in the world
without becoming aware of the meaning of the world
is like wandering about in a great library
without touching the books.

-The Secret Teachings
of All Ages

damn. should have saved up college fees and explore what the world has to offer with it.

The assumed effect of age (year) as a function of social network activity level (number of posts). A superficial one.

(http://www.healthapalooza.com/reports/wp-content/uploads/2009/04/bed_top.jpg)

I believe couples, in love, should never go to bed angrily...
-anonymous

at this moment in time.

i just had a shower. i am still having my headache. i am going to pop my seventh pair of panadol this week. so that i can sleep without pounding in my head. i am wondering what is happening to me. i kind of feel so sorry for myself having this headache. i think i should seek a doctor. i think not. i think i will be fine after a good night's sleep. i am not having a fever. i am starting to cough again. i am not thinking about school. i am not thinking about tomorrow. i am thinking about today. i am thinking about what i would have done otherwise. i do not think i have regrets not doing something. i feel ashamed not being able to accomplish something. i think i should act more. i think maybe i should talk more. i think i should ask more. i should question more. i should be brave. i must be brave. i think i should study. i think i should not study in the first place. i envy people. i feel i should improve. i think i think too much. i think i ate too much. i think i should grab hold of opportunities. i feel that i want to get out of here. i think i am starting to fear here. i think i maybe developing psychological here. i hope i am not developing anything here. i want to say all these "i" out somewhere. i think i should instead type them out here. i think i feel better after typing them out. i do not think i have been cured of my headaches. i think it maybe my aching neck and shoulder. i think it is them that is causing my headache. i think i need sleep. i think i should go sleep now. That's not me. it's I.

Today(Sunday) is a hot day. Normal day. Today(Monday) is back to school day. Good for those without school. Hope it's good for those with work! Hope everyone is less blue, if not, no blues! Good luck! Good day! :)

it's hard not to think...

If You're Not The One - Daniel Bedingfield

this is for october.

plain october. a month so plain, it does not have any school holidays nor public holidays. looking a the schedule for october, it's just routine mondays to fridays and the weekends, which passes so fast. and it's back to monday again. not to mention the forever so squeezy mrt trains and the mad rush in the morning and evening. then there's still deadlines to meet, tests to study for, presentations to rehearse for and reports to type for. then you may just realize. is that how october should be? of course, october has its amazing points too. there're important occasions to note. and october baby to buy presents for. however, just to note, there're the challenges too. one after another, one after another. improving situations or better still, overcoming them, one after another and one after another. they just keep coming. but then before you know it, it's back to the routinely mondays to fridays, looking forward to weekends. like i said, plain october. at least for me. hope it's better for you! :)

i've been taking panadols (or paracetamol if you like) before i sleep. if not, headaches, and i can't sleep. shit.

am i dying? i hope i am

Making Life Simple

This is for September

The month of the 2010 Singapore Singtel Formula One Grand Prix. I must admit. I am not the typical die hard fan of F1 racing. I am not into buying the ticket to hear the loud roaring engines. I am not going to go into that area of Singapore where a normal sedan car is not allowed. Not until, i graduate. Haha. I haven't notice about F1 till it comes to Singapore. And it's only after it arrived in Singapore, and after i have gotten my driver's license, and also after i manage to drive in to Malaysia, have i like the feeling to control a machine of four wheels (but has yet manage to hit speed of 300km/h), but i did reach 140km/h. Heng arh, no Traffic Police. but 140km/h only for 2 seconds. Haha. I cherish my driver's license okay. Thanks.

Anyway, going to do my essay assignment. study for tests on monday, tuesday and friday next week.

Hope to catch the pole position race tonight!

Hope you have a great weekend!

it doesn't matter if the car's a toyota or lambo, can drive can already.

Good heavens, did you know

that you had robbed me of my one and only little self esteem. i do have a little bit just in case you didn't know. and i do cherish it, until now it's all gone. admittedly, i am slowly developing a phobia, one i don't dare to face. but i can only face it alone. it wasn't meant to be this way. it was the technical me at fault. things that i should have done, but left it behind my tiny brain. things that i shouldn't have done, i've done it with little regret. now things have happened, and less i want it to be known. god, i've been robbed. and what do you know.

that it was so packed every morning. but i guess you wouldn't care, cos' it's not you who's in the sardine-packed. and fabulous people cramp in. fabulous people, judging from the very superficial facts. ironed clothes, cufflings, polished shoes, nails, korean-style make up. japanese-style hair dye, victoria secrets lingerie, The iPhone, The iPod, The iPod touch, Today newspaper, MyPaper, mp3 players which plays downloaded mp3 files, leather bags, clam shell bags, heels, LV, Coach, Gucci, BOSS, perfumes from all flora and fauna. god, i'm in white polo, grey shorts, and grey slippers. and what do you know.

Good night. Take care. Cherish and be cherished. Done and keep doing. Love and hope love finds you back. Kindness begets kindness. Be brave to hug and cry, because that's just the way humans are. you are.

yes, i am exaggerating.

wonders.

wonder if cognitive dissonance theory can be applied to understand the volunteers of YOG?
wonder if opponent process theory can understand relationship problems?

more to wonder.

Food for thought.

Based on an actual conversation that took place between a "relationship expert" and a caller on a radio call-in show:

"Hi, Dr. I need some advice. I'm wondering if I should get married or break off my engagement and finish university first."

"How old are you?"

"21."

"Break off your engagement. Statistically, your marriage has a much better chance of surviving if you don't get married until your late 20s."

"Oh. Okay."

Powell et al., 2009. Exact words are in italics.

:)

prototypicality.

http://youtu.be/d9FfQuqKrtg

wols. nice. tear.

http://youtu.be/ORwWIYjRTRg

i can't help it

it's raining all day long, and i just can't help it
can't help but to stay indoors whole day today
can't help but to rot at home today
can't help but to realize i'm so free to post something

it's crazy how one can actually find the time, to tidy up one's bed.
put a pillow behind the neck, sit in a not really uptight position, listening to whatever the laptop has to offer and just look out of the window.
only to realize that the rain seems to be falling from the sky, forever, today.
guess the sky can't help it either.

then again, it's not like because of the rain that i have to stay indoors.
it's also because i've been plagued by this really dumb virus.
it has successfully invaded my body since friday, somehow.
and i am still feeling abit down, today, like i said, i can't help it.

but it is because of this illness, if i may call it, that i find the time to really sit down and think.
think about the past, the today, and a little of tomorrow.
moods really switching fast, just like how the tracks jumps to the next on windows media player.
might be the rain, but i can't help it.

i guess if today is monday.
lots of working people would have been suffering.
lots of accidents might have happened.
lots of unhappy events may unfold, as if they can help it.

been surfing around the world wide web.
world cup, taiwan stuff, new york, almost everything that i can think of.
and also specific and random blogs.
it's good to know that people are living their life, as i sit still on my bed.

so, perhaps, maybe, one would like to fall sick one day.
just sit and laze around.
but probably, one do not have to succumb to such method.
can just take leave, time off, MC, and whatever stunts left to pull.

or just sleep in.

till then, dread work and enjoy life!

miss you.