tell me, how do you feel...

you'll love her more than me, promise me...
i just got to make sure, so she'll feel better...
that's my dream, in the morning...
just me dreaming, with no meaning...

woke up at seven am, this is how...
how i manage? by having such dreams anyhow...
dreams that tell no tales, that carries no meaning...
as i opened my eyes suddenly, it's morning already...

i thought, often...
should i feel like an orphan, the mood i carry while i blog...
by typing everything the other way round, i thought...
like an old man with white hair, carrying a pen of feather...

thinking, ain't that bad...
it uses the brain, not your back...
thoughts can flash through, or stay...
though they are quite useless, like the sticks of satay...

courage, i don't seem to have...
to face questions, that people gave...
questions of such absurdity, it almost drove me to the grave...
but they don't allow me, as my answers usually leads them to a daze...

romance, ain't my favourite subject...
but, also not a reject...
talk about it, not read about it...
just like the merchant of vernice, it's how shakespeare write it...

think before you do, "people" often say...
do and then regret, those "people" never stay...
it's your own doing, "people" would say...
so think of the value before doing something, i now say...

and yes people, how do you tell...
if your sacrifice is larger than the other party, please tell me...

=)

think something, say something, do something...

and yes, it seems different today

it not only seem different, from me...
it felt different as well, pointing at thee...
today is different, woke up with a glee...
and felt, did not have enough sleep, sleepeee...

words to summarise the day? might not be enough...
chelsea vs liverpool, so not exciting of a draw...
but i am nevertheless, glad, becos' i spoke of a zero goal score...
slept for three, maybe a little more...

out i am, to school, for a game or two...
fun at first, tiring at the end...
hope everyone had fun, and is happy...
for i am, and enjoyed today...

squash, for once, played with two balls...
badminton, felt feeble and weak, but still had fun...
the seriousness of everyone, in particular one...
had been impressive, and i mean it for real...

lunch was crappy, and unimpressive...
five eighty for nasi lemak, sounds like a rip off...
the shaky chairs, ain't nice to me...
and yes, i'm talking about the kfc im-poster-ree...

the rest, i shall not go on...
for it only shows, the evil side of me...
and i shall always remember, that...
no work would most likely mean, no food...

this post, wasn't meant to be...
but today, so meaningful it felt...
with people around me, so dear...
and hopefully, they feel good, even if i'm the odd one out...

for yes people, i am...
and i do feel so out of place all the time...

haha, =)

simply to put, you happy. i happy. =D

like i say, don't regret knowing me

today, i woke up, with a heavy head...
knowing it's sunday, i tried to go on sleeping like a dead...
but instead, i let my thoughts run wild...
thoughts, that i fear most, would happen only in fairy tales...

and fairy tales, my fellow mates...
truely is, are, nothing but lies...
slap me if you want, hit me till i fly...
i don't care, for i shall hold my stand...

i don't wish to please everyone, it would be hard...
but pleasing the one deserving it, it's like the "eh, bee, and see"...
but, that's not the thought i had in mind...
for the thought is, is anyone mine?

i went on to ponder, subconsciously...
did anyone regret, knowing me...
i wasn't sure, why such a thought...
maybe i felt, my life's like a fraud...

so do me a favour, please please please...
clarify my doubts, will do thee...
but let's not trouble you, no no...
for you guys, are busy bees...

the next thought, is quite bizarre...
just as messy as, the early pasar...
and i hope, i can confess to a pastor...
for i'm sure, having this thought, this feeling, is definitely wrong...

so i believe, i've sinned...
but feelings such such, couldn't be just alone me...
okay, be it one sided or not, it CAN just be me...
oh god, please, i have a confession to make...

and did i say, fish has the ability to self forgive?
and so he did, he forgot about it soon enough...
till now, it came back, just like a tsunami...
then, he felt so bad, he can't sleep anymore...

for what purpose, for this thought to persist...
it held no meaning, no way it can be...
disappointment my friends, *shakes the head...
make my heart drop, just like the trip to hell...

things that are hard to get, the most precious...
a belief of mine, that has proved quite a mistake...
but a habit, it has become...
and this belief, cost me dearly...

i prefer having her long term, really...
then to having her, for a short period of time...
but i know, she won't be around any longer...
i'll make sure, it's a sweet and short period...

and yes people who know me, i seldom hold up to my words...
for this once, i hope i can be real...

=)

looking ahead, i see this glimpse of light, glowing and dimming, just like the morse code i've learnt, just to spell out her name...

whenever i'm with you, i feel whole again...

good morning blog, i say...
i woke up slightly early, with much dismay...
i thought i could sleep longer, to cure the dark rings around me...
so i could be ready for school, that's starting in may...

but something's troubling me, lately...
that i needed to type this blog, at this space, gladly...
with no one to confide with, sadly...
i had to use this space here, pathetically...

but it's free, heng(luckily) ar...
if not, i really can swallow down my words...
and not tell anyone, it would be hard...
for people, i don't talk the way i do anymore...

a point to be proven, really...
that m'sia is not at all dangerous, luckily...
haha, actually i thought, i went over with the right party...
and had much fun, at least for me...

i really hope the rest had fun, with or without me...
but it is one trip, that's pretty hard to forget without smiling...
simply to put, just like any other singaporean heading over...
but we do things, that will make them have a hang over...

the car ride...
the people...
the food...
fish had deeply appreciated them all...

the feeling so strange, perhaps is the unfamiliarity amongst the familiarity...
the surroundings so familiar, really...
but i'm so happy the accompaniment felt unfamiliar, happily...
much began, the first of all the first times of yesterday...

just like a fairy tale, it felt like a lie...
books were never found, so sad for a lady...
the book might be one hot book, i don't know...
but resort to photocopying? i might suggest it...

there's so many first times, i won't be saying it here...
just like they say, from i don't know where...
that everything that occurs, for the very first times...
should remain as, "you know, i know" and that'd be enough...

it's really hard to describe at times, the feelings you had...
and often, you might describe it the wrong just like i had, MAYBE...
if i ever did such thing, i'm sorry...
for i never meant to do such a thing, bang me with a lorry...

sometimes, i really don't know...
if what i said, was rude...
if what i did, was rude...
but deep inside, i hope they weren't what i was thinking them as...

if not, bang me with a lorry again...
step on me, at least you bothered...
the feeling of loneliness, should never be felt...
take that down, the new pope named benedict XVI...

haha, cockiness within still emerged...
i know, i know, it's irritating...
but, alittle bit of tit and tat wouldn't kill...
for everything typed above, was all nothing but just feelings within...

and yes, the point proven...
i shall take my leave, for i am still bad at expressing...

=)

have a nice day...

ever thought of me, when you think of yourself...

it seems to me that, i am bad at consoling people...

dated17th april 2005, the day was boring..
was suppose to do something, but went on to sleep unknowingly...
so the day went on, half heartedly...
until the night came, watched the fa cup semi final happily...

manchester went on to trash the magpies, just as expected...
wearing the man utd jersey, everyone knew which side i'm on...
the only thing, the last thing that they will want to know...
my man utd jersey, is fake you know?...

haha, i smiled at the score of five...
everyone clapped, i could feel the vibe...
and that moment, i grabbed my senses back...
as i saw someone, of a fabulous back...

that someone, is more of a resemblance...
but it's not her, after much confirmation...
what a dismay, i thought to myself...
i thought i was lucky, but only deceiving myself...

you told me, that the day is bad...
i merely told you, tomorrow will be better...
now that tomorrow has come, i prayed it's not hotter...
hope the sun that's risen, will make you look so much sweeter...

and then, i reflect, yet again...
not able to help, i felt the pain...
deep in my heart, i meant so well...
but seeing you not any better, i feel so swell...

just so like me, so like the blood in me...
i've inherited, much of the self forgiving me...
the ability to self forgive, is much of a sin...
beliving in tomorrow will be better, doesn't require anyone to make a din...

yet again, how true can the truth be...
for the truth can be fake, the fake can be true...
believe in me, i hope you will...
even, if, i don't make dreams come true...

rules are meant to be broken, definitely...
who says money can buy everything, that's so pathetic...
the poor can afford, but to yearn for nothing...
yearning for sweets, just like a little lady...

and so it seems, apparently...
that i am still, bad at consoling...

=(

i don't know why i've become such a copy"writer", but it just amuses me... arh.. heckz... this is how i feel, and this will be how i express myself, be it right or wrong..

period.

take care.

just like the fireworks, so is my presence in front of you...

sigh, i regret not taking as much action, but too many words...

good morning, says fish to you...
i'm up early, how about you...
the sun's up early, why ain't you...
but heck, it's saturday, go back to sleep you...

back to blogging, these few days...
was kept busy, now back, in a daze...
just thought i type something, not in black...
just in case, blogger store my account in the back...

let's talk, about yesterday...
where fun, much filled without cai dao kueh...
had pasta, honourably at someone's place...
which i proudly, call "our chalet"...

mistakes made, along the way...
called one wrong person, SHE got in our way...
but nevermind, without her, yesterday might be less fun anyway...
so yeah, everyone didn't mind her, that's the way...

a dog called miki, how's it spelt again?
watched it being bathed, and dried with much pain...
it looked at me, was like trying to say...
"song bo, three cha bo help me bathe"...

i thought to myself, at the end of the day...
what was done, was it constructive? ah doi~
but like, what's done is done...
as i put myself to bed, the PC's screaming in pain...

woke up at eight, went to jog...
the morning sun, shone at me, making me a log...
but heck the sun, there's more to spot...
as the aunties smiled, sitting there talk cock...

came back, for breakfast...
then went to fix, the lame com first...
it got better, i need to quench my thirst...
went online, and check, can liverpool win tottenham hotspurs?

and now, the morning's almost gone...
there's more to uncover, as the day goes on...
might be updating, tomorrow or the day after sun...
but i believe, my blogging still goes on...

haha...

soooo crappy..
but yeah..
as a reminder, i'm bad at talking..
so TAKE CARE PEEPS!

for i'm gone.

=)

lollipops are nice, with colours so fine, with colours so fine, lollipops are nice...

i knew it man, this is my favourite... by far...


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in any case, fairy tales are practically lies.



first post of april, to think i'd have such a title, doesn't sound right.
first post after a long rest, doesn't make things seem right either.

haha.

but it's alright. it doesn't lack of depth, does it?

anyway, today, i've proven myself to be someone of little dignity.
someone of THIS importance in my life apprently. and another, that speaks of little words but has THAT importance in my life as well. basically, that's the this(s) and that(s) of my life, that helped me proved that. *ponders*

and of course, my starr of my contact list. the silent one, the one i've given the least respect to, the one that never failed to smile, the one that i deem to have the very own specialty that no one has, the one that clearly possess the intelligence. nope. it's not THE ONE of my life. but it's the THE of my life. i've failed to forget about this starr.

and many more. that i'm unable to crapp more on.

ehwhat's with all these substances about my life? it's wrong. haha.

anyway, i'll end all here. continue another day. and, ya. stay around.

take care.

with hopes of thinking like Einstein and the brains of Da Vinci, Leonardo...