something out of nothing
hey there. Christmas is over. haha. what a day. it comes and it goes. just like that. if the atmosphere wasn't there, i'd most probably missed it. but. too bad. i didn't gave it a miss. realised some people out there hang out with their friends. exchange gifts and so on. it's like wow. so nice. haha. of course. i didn't do such things. why? i don't know. it's more like a tradition now. not celebrating that kind of stuff. or maybe. no one to do it with. haha. family? of course. a dinner together nevertheless. no turkey. :X
shopping alone is not fun. i am telling it to myself and whoever is the least interested to know. yup. it ain't fun. haha. don't believe me? try it. i'm not daring you. but if you think in your very particular life right now, you are facing too much, alittle too much excitement. do it. shop around alone. don't be afraid. you're not the first. yup.
bought a little something. haha. didn't know what it is for. but i just buy it. incase it comes into handy. i mean. i don't want to walk around empty-handed. alone. that is. haha.
jerk. asshole i think i am. haha. unbelievable. i am scolding myself right now. yes i think i am. thinking back, i am very bias. i must say. very very bias. haha. just got this feeling. i am treating people unfairly somehow. not the way. not that way. the wrong attitude for everybody i must say. i don't know why. i don't know how to change too. no way is the library going to help? i don't know. perhaps i can check it out. haha. something about personalities. yup.
hey. what's wrong with christianity? nothing's wrong okay! shuddup about your religious shit. fuck.
haha. there goes me. a jackass right there. :X
on this very christmas, i watched Serendipity on channel 5. a show almost similar to that of the chinese show "turn left, turn right". one show that's really nice i suppose. at least, personally, it's good. haha. how lucky can two people be. how unlucky can two people be. how high are the chances for two people so out of this world to be together.
destiny and fates lies in our hands? it's the past that moulds our future? experience leads the way? should we just let fate do things? or should we have our own way of doing things? what is destiny? what is fate?
do i believe in fate? in destiny? do i write something here and hope? maybe. maybe not. i'll give it a try. it is not going to hurt, is it? *ouch*
hey. really really glad to know the air is being cleared. you've cleared your mind. not thinking about things. having a bright clearer head start. it should have been this way. and not dwelling onto things. yup.
just ignore this.
crap.
haha.
way of getting myself tired.
so i can just sleep with no hassles.
sigh.
this is bad.
take care.
best wishes.
:)
ciaoz.
i'm not lucky, ya... fuck my luck...
Thursday, December 25, 2003
Merry Christmas!
Morning! everyone's out to work already. haha. cool rite. alone at home. again. yawnz. woke up like 8.46am. wow. queer timing isn't it? haha. no la. my hp rang. stupid friend. haha. but he's a good friend ^^ so i woke up and found myself engaging in some online stuffs. and was done by now. around 11.30 ? hmm. i don't know. but that's how i guess i'm gonna spend my christmas morning. :X
so. Christmas. what's the first thing i did on the 25th of december? guess! haha. nah. i took a bathe on 12.10am 25th dec. haha. that's the first thing i did. excluding the sms trying to be sent around. haha. yup.
morning~! good gracious. no breakfast! die. haha. no la. gonna get it soon. after a few surfing of things online. yup. don't tell you what i surfing lei! :X think dirty and you might get a clue. haha.
*hungry*
a hungry man is an angry man.
sorry.
gotta go i guess.
be back soon!
miss you.
take care!
bleahs.
:)
it's always like this, isn't it?
i'm going to be evil...
Morning! everyone's out to work already. haha. cool rite. alone at home. again. yawnz. woke up like 8.46am. wow. queer timing isn't it? haha. no la. my hp rang. stupid friend. haha. but he's a good friend ^^ so i woke up and found myself engaging in some online stuffs. and was done by now. around 11.30 ? hmm. i don't know. but that's how i guess i'm gonna spend my christmas morning. :X
so. Christmas. what's the first thing i did on the 25th of december? guess! haha. nah. i took a bathe on 12.10am 25th dec. haha. that's the first thing i did. excluding the sms trying to be sent around. haha. yup.
morning~! good gracious. no breakfast! die. haha. no la. gonna get it soon. after a few surfing of things online. yup. don't tell you what i surfing lei! :X think dirty and you might get a clue. haha.
*hungry*
a hungry man is an angry man.
sorry.
gotta go i guess.
be back soon!
miss you.
take care!
bleahs.
:)
it's always like this, isn't it?
i'm going to be evil...
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
unbelievable
let's start this the proper way, shall we? haha. the weather. of course. the weather's perfectly warm today. no doubts on that. temperatures sure rises today. i'm not sure about you people out there. but i stayed indoors and was keeping the fans on whole day. yup. :X
why? why did i decided to stay indoors today? when i can fix a time get a couple of friends out. i don't know. perhaps the weather just make me feel negative about going out today. my sister tempted me to go out when she went out. i insisted on my stand when she wanted me to accompany her as well. i refused. haha. how bad~ i seirously doesn't want to go out. :X my bud called. i told him i stayed indoors today. my~ definitely was he disappointed. i am just ASSUMING here. :X please don't spread around. haha.
good guys finish last. trust me. i gave my sister 10 bucks. >.<
you know. had a dream today. was like during world war kinda thing. i was thinking myself as a navigator on a aircraft. a fighter jet. then i gave the wrong directions. cool. the plane was hit. i guess by germans. haha. then the plane crashed. wow. wasn't the feeling so real. very real. haha. gibberish sia. haha. i think i read too much of that book i borrowed before i go for sleep. so sad. so scary. haha. craziness. kind of stupid too.
got sms today wor. wonderful feelings. thanks for inventing this sms thing. haha. appreciate it man. :X
5566 - Boyfriend. damn nice a song. i think.
incredible
What in Danaan's name?
lolx
hmm.
getting late.
maybe.
maybe not.
haha.
take care.
:)
thinking of you, loving you...
let's start this the proper way, shall we? haha. the weather. of course. the weather's perfectly warm today. no doubts on that. temperatures sure rises today. i'm not sure about you people out there. but i stayed indoors and was keeping the fans on whole day. yup. :X
why? why did i decided to stay indoors today? when i can fix a time get a couple of friends out. i don't know. perhaps the weather just make me feel negative about going out today. my sister tempted me to go out when she went out. i insisted on my stand when she wanted me to accompany her as well. i refused. haha. how bad~ i seirously doesn't want to go out. :X my bud called. i told him i stayed indoors today. my~ definitely was he disappointed. i am just ASSUMING here. :X please don't spread around. haha.
good guys finish last. trust me. i gave my sister 10 bucks. >.<
you know. had a dream today. was like during world war kinda thing. i was thinking myself as a navigator on a aircraft. a fighter jet. then i gave the wrong directions. cool. the plane was hit. i guess by germans. haha. then the plane crashed. wow. wasn't the feeling so real. very real. haha. gibberish sia. haha. i think i read too much of that book i borrowed before i go for sleep. so sad. so scary. haha. craziness. kind of stupid too.
got sms today wor. wonderful feelings. thanks for inventing this sms thing. haha. appreciate it man. :X
5566 - Boyfriend. damn nice a song. i think.
incredible
What in Danaan's name?
lolx
hmm.
getting late.
maybe.
maybe not.
haha.
take care.
:)
thinking of you, loving you...
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
holy spirit touch me within
forgive me for typing all these holy crap. what else is in my mind now then that? freaky 3 hours inside a Singapore Conference Hall listening to none other than holy stuffs. i prefer using the word holy as i guess i don't want to offend anybody out there. yup. haha. it's really okay. i am really kinda being influenced right now. a shift of my faith here and there. getting sick. haha. i'm okay. anyway, it's Christmas not X'mas for christ sake. DUH~
what did i do today? sleep eat watch tv go out.
the end.
this is my blog. i type it the way i want it to be. haha. -L-
tell me the way i can reach you...
forgive me for typing all these holy crap. what else is in my mind now then that? freaky 3 hours inside a Singapore Conference Hall listening to none other than holy stuffs. i prefer using the word holy as i guess i don't want to offend anybody out there. yup. haha. it's really okay. i am really kinda being influenced right now. a shift of my faith here and there. getting sick. haha. i'm okay. anyway, it's Christmas not X'mas for christ sake. DUH~
what did i do today? sleep eat watch tv go out.
the end.
this is my blog. i type it the way i want it to be. haha. -L-
tell me the way i can reach you...
Sunday, December 21, 2003
put your thinking cap back on
the rain stopped. leaving its significant traces behind. just like the tears of one. your heart hurts, you cried. after you've cried, the traces will be there. it won't go away. yup. i guess.
the clouds are different. they are plain today. some hovering nowhere. some floating high above. some just mingle with the mountains. but their simple whiteness is there. their unimaginable shapes are there. cool.
do you talk to your parents much? do you talk to someone you see everyday about your stuffs? if that someone is your girlfriend or boyfriend, do you talk to him/her alot? when you two are seeing each other everyday. if yes, why can't you do that to your parents? why are you saying so much things to someone, when his/her blood ain't that thick.
there hasn't been much contact around for me. HOW IS EVERYBODY? haha. i guess all are still busy with their own shit. ops. i mean stuffs. haha. RESPECT is the keyword.
anywhere, everwhere. the clouds are always there. not much difference throughout asia i guess. haha. look up there. think. it's always there for you isn't it? haha. be it rain or shine.
i don't know.
haha.
doubtful.
i'm worried.
are you eating well?
are you sleeping well?
are you angry/sad/lost/happy/excited?
good night everyone.
good morning too.
take real good care.
=)
without resistance, you will still be strong...
the rain stopped. leaving its significant traces behind. just like the tears of one. your heart hurts, you cried. after you've cried, the traces will be there. it won't go away. yup. i guess.
the clouds are different. they are plain today. some hovering nowhere. some floating high above. some just mingle with the mountains. but their simple whiteness is there. their unimaginable shapes are there. cool.
do you talk to your parents much? do you talk to someone you see everyday about your stuffs? if that someone is your girlfriend or boyfriend, do you talk to him/her alot? when you two are seeing each other everyday. if yes, why can't you do that to your parents? why are you saying so much things to someone, when his/her blood ain't that thick.
there hasn't been much contact around for me. HOW IS EVERYBODY? haha. i guess all are still busy with their own shit. ops. i mean stuffs. haha. RESPECT is the keyword.
anywhere, everwhere. the clouds are always there. not much difference throughout asia i guess. haha. look up there. think. it's always there for you isn't it? haha. be it rain or shine.
i don't know.
haha.
doubtful.
i'm worried.
are you eating well?
are you sleeping well?
are you angry/sad/lost/happy/excited?
good night everyone.
good morning too.
take real good care.
=)
without resistance, you will still be strong...
Saturday, December 20, 2003
Friday, December 12, 2003
fallen into a trap
yup. just wake up today. haha. what a surprise. i was actually awaken by the rain. it's pouring kinda hard now. the air is damp. the weather is cold. but comfortable for me. haha. i can withstand coldness by mother nature, yet not by spieces of my kind. i mean. who can? haha.
what happen? why did i wake up so late? haha. actually i slept early. as early as about 9am today. yes. 9am today. haha. so i guess it is more or less expected of me to sleep till now. yup. about 6 hours of deep sleep, without any slight of disturbance. haha. everyone went out ya. it's me alone in this house. awww~
went to this chalet thingy near the pasir ris park to find you. haha. it was kinda last minute decision i suppose. playing game half way. the tv is on. and my handphone is just being deserted by me. just when i took a good look at my handphone, it rang. 1 message recieved. haha. yup. and it goes on. and i went out. and everything as follows. overnight stay eventually. no sleep. haha. abandoning the game, the tv, the supper, the bed, if you were to ask me if it's worth it. *no hesitation* absolutely worth the sacrifice. =)
i was just wondering. "when you are with someone, and you still misses this particular, that might be a sign that you are in love with this particular" is it true? haha. i don't really know. but i guess it's just another can't-be-explained feeling. yup.
if you were to ask, what did i learn for sacrificing my sleep? what did i learn when i just dash out of my house? did i eventually learn something? or i was just doing things blindly. i think i did learn something.
it's very very fortunate and a blessing to be able to see someone when you just do not know when it's the next opportunity that you can see her. every minute suddenly counts.
so i'm now here. still feeling the fatigue and the pain from my knees. the pain is nothing. yup. it's just another injury from the past. haha. no point talking about it.
guess i'm now going to get some food.
why?
realising that i did not have dinner and anything afterwards. haha.
so
ciaox~
the darkness expresses the feelings...
yup. just wake up today. haha. what a surprise. i was actually awaken by the rain. it's pouring kinda hard now. the air is damp. the weather is cold. but comfortable for me. haha. i can withstand coldness by mother nature, yet not by spieces of my kind. i mean. who can? haha.
what happen? why did i wake up so late? haha. actually i slept early. as early as about 9am today. yes. 9am today. haha. so i guess it is more or less expected of me to sleep till now. yup. about 6 hours of deep sleep, without any slight of disturbance. haha. everyone went out ya. it's me alone in this house. awww~
went to this chalet thingy near the pasir ris park to find you. haha. it was kinda last minute decision i suppose. playing game half way. the tv is on. and my handphone is just being deserted by me. just when i took a good look at my handphone, it rang. 1 message recieved. haha. yup. and it goes on. and i went out. and everything as follows. overnight stay eventually. no sleep. haha. abandoning the game, the tv, the supper, the bed, if you were to ask me if it's worth it. *no hesitation* absolutely worth the sacrifice. =)
i was just wondering. "when you are with someone, and you still misses this particular, that might be a sign that you are in love with this particular" is it true? haha. i don't really know. but i guess it's just another can't-be-explained feeling. yup.
if you were to ask, what did i learn for sacrificing my sleep? what did i learn when i just dash out of my house? did i eventually learn something? or i was just doing things blindly. i think i did learn something.
it's very very fortunate and a blessing to be able to see someone when you just do not know when it's the next opportunity that you can see her. every minute suddenly counts.
so i'm now here. still feeling the fatigue and the pain from my knees. the pain is nothing. yup. it's just another injury from the past. haha. no point talking about it.
guess i'm now going to get some food.
why?
realising that i did not have dinner and anything afterwards. haha.
so
ciaox~
the darkness expresses the feelings...
Thursday, December 04, 2003
come on
HEY! watch it there. haha. in a dark room with only lights from the monitor. trying to press the keys on the board as soft as possible. closed several applications for faster performance. haha. not sure whether if it is working but i do hope so. had enough of slow things. yup.
playing soccer later. *pray* nothing happen to me. haha. dangerous play is there always. never a fair play. don't know why. is it me? or is it the others? haha.
if got time, planning to go for an interview for a job. guess maybe not. abit late. haha. the holidays are ending ya. and got to check out the timetable to see my schedule. how busy or how relax will it be.
need a little motivation. need a little boost of morale. in need to search for something. what thing? hmm.
sigh
ciaoz~
if i never ask, would you pretend and leave?
HEY! watch it there. haha. in a dark room with only lights from the monitor. trying to press the keys on the board as soft as possible. closed several applications for faster performance. haha. not sure whether if it is working but i do hope so. had enough of slow things. yup.
playing soccer later. *pray* nothing happen to me. haha. dangerous play is there always. never a fair play. don't know why. is it me? or is it the others? haha.
if got time, planning to go for an interview for a job. guess maybe not. abit late. haha. the holidays are ending ya. and got to check out the timetable to see my schedule. how busy or how relax will it be.
need a little motivation. need a little boost of morale. in need to search for something. what thing? hmm.
sigh
ciaoz~
if i never ask, would you pretend and leave?
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
Monday, December 01, 2003
a new month, a new "feel"
yo! afternoon peeps. haha. didn't manage to wake up by morning. wasn't sure of the reason. but. erm. just didn't want to wake up i guess. didn't have dream either. just slept through and then when i open up my eyes. didn't see the person i want to see. haha. but the clock. it showed 12.10pm. haha. great~ missed the morning.
yup. 011203. felt nothing special. haha. this day ain't special at all. no reason for it to be special. nobody's birthday. no occasion. a few regrets for the previous month. haha. but. a new beginning. isn't that great? a new beginning for things. but. sadly. some doesn't change. sob. yup. some things just don't change, do they?
you know? there's nothing on the television right now. everyone's out. me's in. haha. everyone around me is busy, yet again. on the rightful monday. what to do? monday. the start of the week. everyone should be busy. but sad. i'm not. yup. should i be glad? that i have nothing to do? nothing to look forward to. but tons of things to think about. haha.
the tables's empty. the refrigerator is empty too. nothing is there for me to whipped up a good lunch. or breakfast. or both. haha. having these problems lately. waking up in between times. haha. that's me. when i have a good sleep, or a bad one, it's always like this. what should i do today? hmm. i'm thinking really hard.
haha. recieved comments about this new skin. what to do? I LIKE IT. haha. okok. i will do a change real soon. perhaps NEXT MONTH. haha. at least now i got the motivation to type le. haha.
hey!
yup.
you!
thinking of you right now.
take care horrrrr!
yup.
=)
somethings just NEVER change...
yo! afternoon peeps. haha. didn't manage to wake up by morning. wasn't sure of the reason. but. erm. just didn't want to wake up i guess. didn't have dream either. just slept through and then when i open up my eyes. didn't see the person i want to see. haha. but the clock. it showed 12.10pm. haha. great~ missed the morning.
yup. 011203. felt nothing special. haha. this day ain't special at all. no reason for it to be special. nobody's birthday. no occasion. a few regrets for the previous month. haha. but. a new beginning. isn't that great? a new beginning for things. but. sadly. some doesn't change. sob. yup. some things just don't change, do they?
you know? there's nothing on the television right now. everyone's out. me's in. haha. everyone around me is busy, yet again. on the rightful monday. what to do? monday. the start of the week. everyone should be busy. but sad. i'm not. yup. should i be glad? that i have nothing to do? nothing to look forward to. but tons of things to think about. haha.
the tables's empty. the refrigerator is empty too. nothing is there for me to whipped up a good lunch. or breakfast. or both. haha. having these problems lately. waking up in between times. haha. that's me. when i have a good sleep, or a bad one, it's always like this. what should i do today? hmm. i'm thinking really hard.
haha. recieved comments about this new skin. what to do? I LIKE IT. haha. okok. i will do a change real soon. perhaps NEXT MONTH. haha. at least now i got the motivation to type le. haha.
hey!
yup.
you!
thinking of you right now.
take care horrrrr!
yup.
=)
somethings just NEVER change...
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