a little space i call my own

something out of nothing

hey there. Christmas is over. haha. what a day. it comes and it goes. just like that. if the atmosphere wasn't there, i'd most probably missed it. but. too bad. i didn't gave it a miss. realised some people out there hang out with their friends. exchange gifts and so on. it's like wow. so nice. haha. of course. i didn't do such things. why? i don't know. it's more like a tradition now. not celebrating that kind of stuff. or maybe. no one to do it with. haha. family? of course. a dinner together nevertheless. no turkey. :X

shopping alone is not fun. i am telling it to myself and whoever is the least interested to know. yup. it ain't fun. haha. don't believe me? try it. i'm not daring you. but if you think in your very particular life right now, you are facing too much, alittle too much excitement. do it. shop around alone. don't be afraid. you're not the first. yup.

bought a little something. haha. didn't know what it is for. but i just buy it. incase it comes into handy. i mean. i don't want to walk around empty-handed. alone. that is. haha.

jerk. asshole i think i am. haha. unbelievable. i am scolding myself right now. yes i think i am. thinking back, i am very bias. i must say. very very bias. haha. just got this feeling. i am treating people unfairly somehow. not the way. not that way. the wrong attitude for everybody i must say. i don't know why. i don't know how to change too. no way is the library going to help? i don't know. perhaps i can check it out. haha. something about personalities. yup.

hey. what's wrong with christianity? nothing's wrong okay! shuddup about your religious shit. fuck.

haha. there goes me. a jackass right there. :X

on this very christmas, i watched Serendipity on channel 5. a show almost similar to that of the chinese show "turn left, turn right". one show that's really nice i suppose. at least, personally, it's good. haha. how lucky can two people be. how unlucky can two people be. how high are the chances for two people so out of this world to be together.

destiny and fates lies in our hands? it's the past that moulds our future? experience leads the way? should we just let fate do things? or should we have our own way of doing things? what is destiny? what is fate?

do i believe in fate? in destiny? do i write something here and hope? maybe. maybe not. i'll give it a try. it is not going to hurt, is it? *ouch*

hey. really really glad to know the air is being cleared. you've cleared your mind. not thinking about things. having a bright clearer head start. it should have been this way. and not dwelling onto things. yup.

just ignore this.

crap.

haha.

way of getting myself tired.

so i can just sleep with no hassles.

sigh.

this is bad.

take care.

best wishes.

:)

ciaoz.

i'm not lucky, ya... fuck my luck...