tell me, how do you feel...

you'll love her more than me, promise me...
i just got to make sure, so she'll feel better...
that's my dream, in the morning...
just me dreaming, with no meaning...

woke up at seven am, this is how...
how i manage? by having such dreams anyhow...
dreams that tell no tales, that carries no meaning...
as i opened my eyes suddenly, it's morning already...

i thought, often...
should i feel like an orphan, the mood i carry while i blog...
by typing everything the other way round, i thought...
like an old man with white hair, carrying a pen of feather...

thinking, ain't that bad...
it uses the brain, not your back...
thoughts can flash through, or stay...
though they are quite useless, like the sticks of satay...

courage, i don't seem to have...
to face questions, that people gave...
questions of such absurdity, it almost drove me to the grave...
but they don't allow me, as my answers usually leads them to a daze...

romance, ain't my favourite subject...
but, also not a reject...
talk about it, not read about it...
just like the merchant of vernice, it's how shakespeare write it...

think before you do, "people" often say...
do and then regret, those "people" never stay...
it's your own doing, "people" would say...
so think of the value before doing something, i now say...

and yes people, how do you tell...
if your sacrifice is larger than the other party, please tell me...

=)

think something, say something, do something...

and yes, it seems different today

it not only seem different, from me...
it felt different as well, pointing at thee...
today is different, woke up with a glee...
and felt, did not have enough sleep, sleepeee...

words to summarise the day? might not be enough...
chelsea vs liverpool, so not exciting of a draw...
but i am nevertheless, glad, becos' i spoke of a zero goal score...
slept for three, maybe a little more...

out i am, to school, for a game or two...
fun at first, tiring at the end...
hope everyone had fun, and is happy...
for i am, and enjoyed today...

squash, for once, played with two balls...
badminton, felt feeble and weak, but still had fun...
the seriousness of everyone, in particular one...
had been impressive, and i mean it for real...

lunch was crappy, and unimpressive...
five eighty for nasi lemak, sounds like a rip off...
the shaky chairs, ain't nice to me...
and yes, i'm talking about the kfc im-poster-ree...

the rest, i shall not go on...
for it only shows, the evil side of me...
and i shall always remember, that...
no work would most likely mean, no food...

this post, wasn't meant to be...
but today, so meaningful it felt...
with people around me, so dear...
and hopefully, they feel good, even if i'm the odd one out...

for yes people, i am...
and i do feel so out of place all the time...

haha, =)

simply to put, you happy. i happy. =D

like i say, don't regret knowing me

today, i woke up, with a heavy head...
knowing it's sunday, i tried to go on sleeping like a dead...
but instead, i let my thoughts run wild...
thoughts, that i fear most, would happen only in fairy tales...

and fairy tales, my fellow mates...
truely is, are, nothing but lies...
slap me if you want, hit me till i fly...
i don't care, for i shall hold my stand...

i don't wish to please everyone, it would be hard...
but pleasing the one deserving it, it's like the "eh, bee, and see"...
but, that's not the thought i had in mind...
for the thought is, is anyone mine?

i went on to ponder, subconsciously...
did anyone regret, knowing me...
i wasn't sure, why such a thought...
maybe i felt, my life's like a fraud...

so do me a favour, please please please...
clarify my doubts, will do thee...
but let's not trouble you, no no...
for you guys, are busy bees...

the next thought, is quite bizarre...
just as messy as, the early pasar...
and i hope, i can confess to a pastor...
for i'm sure, having this thought, this feeling, is definitely wrong...

so i believe, i've sinned...
but feelings such such, couldn't be just alone me...
okay, be it one sided or not, it CAN just be me...
oh god, please, i have a confession to make...

and did i say, fish has the ability to self forgive?
and so he did, he forgot about it soon enough...
till now, it came back, just like a tsunami...
then, he felt so bad, he can't sleep anymore...

for what purpose, for this thought to persist...
it held no meaning, no way it can be...
disappointment my friends, *shakes the head...
make my heart drop, just like the trip to hell...

things that are hard to get, the most precious...
a belief of mine, that has proved quite a mistake...
but a habit, it has become...
and this belief, cost me dearly...

i prefer having her long term, really...
then to having her, for a short period of time...
but i know, she won't be around any longer...
i'll make sure, it's a sweet and short period...

and yes people who know me, i seldom hold up to my words...
for this once, i hope i can be real...

=)

looking ahead, i see this glimpse of light, glowing and dimming, just like the morse code i've learnt, just to spell out her name...

whenever i'm with you, i feel whole again...

good morning blog, i say...
i woke up slightly early, with much dismay...
i thought i could sleep longer, to cure the dark rings around me...
so i could be ready for school, that's starting in may...

but something's troubling me, lately...
that i needed to type this blog, at this space, gladly...
with no one to confide with, sadly...
i had to use this space here, pathetically...

but it's free, heng(luckily) ar...
if not, i really can swallow down my words...
and not tell anyone, it would be hard...
for people, i don't talk the way i do anymore...

a point to be proven, really...
that m'sia is not at all dangerous, luckily...
haha, actually i thought, i went over with the right party...
and had much fun, at least for me...

i really hope the rest had fun, with or without me...
but it is one trip, that's pretty hard to forget without smiling...
simply to put, just like any other singaporean heading over...
but we do things, that will make them have a hang over...

the car ride...
the people...
the food...
fish had deeply appreciated them all...

the feeling so strange, perhaps is the unfamiliarity amongst the familiarity...
the surroundings so familiar, really...
but i'm so happy the accompaniment felt unfamiliar, happily...
much began, the first of all the first times of yesterday...

just like a fairy tale, it felt like a lie...
books were never found, so sad for a lady...
the book might be one hot book, i don't know...
but resort to photocopying? i might suggest it...

there's so many first times, i won't be saying it here...
just like they say, from i don't know where...
that everything that occurs, for the very first times...
should remain as, "you know, i know" and that'd be enough...

it's really hard to describe at times, the feelings you had...
and often, you might describe it the wrong just like i had, MAYBE...
if i ever did such thing, i'm sorry...
for i never meant to do such a thing, bang me with a lorry...

sometimes, i really don't know...
if what i said, was rude...
if what i did, was rude...
but deep inside, i hope they weren't what i was thinking them as...

if not, bang me with a lorry again...
step on me, at least you bothered...
the feeling of loneliness, should never be felt...
take that down, the new pope named benedict XVI...

haha, cockiness within still emerged...
i know, i know, it's irritating...
but, alittle bit of tit and tat wouldn't kill...
for everything typed above, was all nothing but just feelings within...

and yes, the point proven...
i shall take my leave, for i am still bad at expressing...

=)

have a nice day...

ever thought of me, when you think of yourself...

it seems to me that, i am bad at consoling people...

dated17th april 2005, the day was boring..
was suppose to do something, but went on to sleep unknowingly...
so the day went on, half heartedly...
until the night came, watched the fa cup semi final happily...

manchester went on to trash the magpies, just as expected...
wearing the man utd jersey, everyone knew which side i'm on...
the only thing, the last thing that they will want to know...
my man utd jersey, is fake you know?...

haha, i smiled at the score of five...
everyone clapped, i could feel the vibe...
and that moment, i grabbed my senses back...
as i saw someone, of a fabulous back...

that someone, is more of a resemblance...
but it's not her, after much confirmation...
what a dismay, i thought to myself...
i thought i was lucky, but only deceiving myself...

you told me, that the day is bad...
i merely told you, tomorrow will be better...
now that tomorrow has come, i prayed it's not hotter...
hope the sun that's risen, will make you look so much sweeter...

and then, i reflect, yet again...
not able to help, i felt the pain...
deep in my heart, i meant so well...
but seeing you not any better, i feel so swell...

just so like me, so like the blood in me...
i've inherited, much of the self forgiving me...
the ability to self forgive, is much of a sin...
beliving in tomorrow will be better, doesn't require anyone to make a din...

yet again, how true can the truth be...
for the truth can be fake, the fake can be true...
believe in me, i hope you will...
even, if, i don't make dreams come true...

rules are meant to be broken, definitely...
who says money can buy everything, that's so pathetic...
the poor can afford, but to yearn for nothing...
yearning for sweets, just like a little lady...

and so it seems, apparently...
that i am still, bad at consoling...

=(

i don't know why i've become such a copy"writer", but it just amuses me... arh.. heckz... this is how i feel, and this will be how i express myself, be it right or wrong..

period.

take care.

just like the fireworks, so is my presence in front of you...

sigh, i regret not taking as much action, but too many words...

good morning, says fish to you...
i'm up early, how about you...
the sun's up early, why ain't you...
but heck, it's saturday, go back to sleep you...

back to blogging, these few days...
was kept busy, now back, in a daze...
just thought i type something, not in black...
just in case, blogger store my account in the back...

let's talk, about yesterday...
where fun, much filled without cai dao kueh...
had pasta, honourably at someone's place...
which i proudly, call "our chalet"...

mistakes made, along the way...
called one wrong person, SHE got in our way...
but nevermind, without her, yesterday might be less fun anyway...
so yeah, everyone didn't mind her, that's the way...

a dog called miki, how's it spelt again?
watched it being bathed, and dried with much pain...
it looked at me, was like trying to say...
"song bo, three cha bo help me bathe"...

i thought to myself, at the end of the day...
what was done, was it constructive? ah doi~
but like, what's done is done...
as i put myself to bed, the PC's screaming in pain...

woke up at eight, went to jog...
the morning sun, shone at me, making me a log...
but heck the sun, there's more to spot...
as the aunties smiled, sitting there talk cock...

came back, for breakfast...
then went to fix, the lame com first...
it got better, i need to quench my thirst...
went online, and check, can liverpool win tottenham hotspurs?

and now, the morning's almost gone...
there's more to uncover, as the day goes on...
might be updating, tomorrow or the day after sun...
but i believe, my blogging still goes on...

haha...

soooo crappy..
but yeah..
as a reminder, i'm bad at talking..
so TAKE CARE PEEPS!

for i'm gone.

=)

lollipops are nice, with colours so fine, with colours so fine, lollipops are nice...

i knew it man, this is my favourite... by far...


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in any case, fairy tales are practically lies.



first post of april, to think i'd have such a title, doesn't sound right.
first post after a long rest, doesn't make things seem right either.

haha.

but it's alright. it doesn't lack of depth, does it?

anyway, today, i've proven myself to be someone of little dignity.
someone of THIS importance in my life apprently. and another, that speaks of little words but has THAT importance in my life as well. basically, that's the this(s) and that(s) of my life, that helped me proved that. *ponders*

and of course, my starr of my contact list. the silent one, the one i've given the least respect to, the one that never failed to smile, the one that i deem to have the very own specialty that no one has, the one that clearly possess the intelligence. nope. it's not THE ONE of my life. but it's the THE of my life. i've failed to forget about this starr.

and many more. that i'm unable to crapp more on.

ehwhat's with all these substances about my life? it's wrong. haha.

anyway, i'll end all here. continue another day. and, ya. stay around.

take care.

with hopes of thinking like Einstein and the brains of Da Vinci, Leonardo...

i typed as i think about you



the rose's for you.

it's getting really windy nowadays. i wonder what's wrong. the smell the wind carries, is not nice. but nevertheless, the wind came, passed by, and went away. similarly, as the globe rotates, events happened, passed by me, and went away.

opportunities came by, passed by me and went away. regret.
questions came by, passed by me and went away. unanswered.
answers came by, passed by me and went away. undiscovered.
you came by, passed by me and went away. blinded.

today i woke up, with sweat on my brow
it must have been a dream, explained the sweat
yesterday, i saw the stars as i talked to you
this morning, i heard the birds sing as i replied to you
i then realised it wasn't a dream
it's all so true



look at it, would you believe it's the same flower?

as this flower blooms, just like you
i can not yet admire your beauty, your glamour, your glow
till it is that day i've decided to keep you to myself
i've decided, again, to precious you as long as i can
till the day it comes i grow old and withers with you
as i age
as i die
with you.

sometimes, you just can't help. but really feel for the other. i mean, you just had to. humans. we changed. environments changed. keep up. change. and let it out when you had to.

oh well.


sigh.

good night.

take care.

i don't fear loneliness, i fear the distance between each other...

how wonderful life is, now you're in the world

this is precisely what i meant. really. truly. and yeah, sincerely meant.

as the wind blows through my new window panes, my hair swayed a little. as i swayed them back to position. my fan turned and blow them out of position. two solutions. cut my hair. off the fan. oh yeah. one more wear a cap. i mean, what can an eighteen year old boy think of?

haha. crap.

that's what happen when you have nothing to do except to ponder about when to actually study for the semester exams. guess what. no more projects already! but. i'm not happy. 'cos i made her angry. 'cos i made her sad. so, i'm not happy. but i'm happy with my friends around. but i'm not happy when i'm alone and out.

i hope you don't mind that i put them in words...

enough with that.

besides, i've checked www.gv.com.sg and realise i've covered most of the movies. right. so... i've got the right to say that. hitch is the good movie around. so yeah, catch it if you can. if you can't, ask me. i'll tell you.

the tips from hitch will work. that is, if you're earning $30,000 singapore dollars.

for just $300 ? consult me.

movies like white noise, closer ain't worth your time. but. i'm so glad i watched those two. it's definitely worth my money and time. i mean, what else can i ask for? lalalalaaa...

a series of unfortunate events? nah. turn off. total bore by my buddy.

so what should we be looking forward to? people. it's spongebob squarepants. no. not robots. but the yellow sponge. sexy.

and yeah, best show on tv this week? moulin rouge. no questions asked.

ar~ there goes the wind. blowing my cupboard door open, doors to slam shut and the skirt to fly off. oops. did i mention skirt? haha...

okay "lah", really "loh", some questions no need to ask "one", 'cos answer "bery" clear "de". so yeah, leave it. the answer will be clear. oh come on~

no descriptions of what is going on around me yet, but i promise. real soon, you'll see updates like what other bloggers do. yak and yak on about this babe that hunk and the food they eat and the things they actually remember of doing.

gotta go busy. time to check out.

good bye.

freedom, love, beauty, truth, and something else which i forgot...

you just came, and then went away

oh well. it's monday.
so funny, thought of quite a bit to type here.
then came here. now typing.
no idea what to type. strange.

but yeah, today's monday.
a typical hot and sunny monday.
a typical hot and sunny and hazy monday.
what's with the haze. nuts "sial". fire, then haze.
make my throat in a craze.
like all the ashes stuck, like got haze in my throat.
the feeling so "uncomfy", but then, what to do.

so yes, i was saying. today is monday.
who'd like to start off with monday by vomitting.
oh god, and yes, i meant me, myself and i.
woke up at seven o'plus, got that little feeling.
went to the toilet to brush my teeth, couldn't help it.
but, burrrrgggggghhhh~ what a morning.
couldn't have been a better start.
people, i'm sick. haha.

just joking ya.

sometimes i wonder
i sometimes ponder
is it me or is it them
then makes me less socialisable
i think i am anti social
but yet, i think i ain't
sometimes i like being alone
other times, together gather
a few times wandering around
but never a time, watch a movie alone

i feel sleepy.
deprived of it.
what to do. if you had to do your projects and get them to the desks on time.
kinda screwed up right now.
feeling all sorts of pain
couldn't lift my eye lids up
couldn't get aim
i just hope i don't show signs of fatigue.

good luck peeps.
good day.
take care.
bye.

i've watched an indian show, =) *PROUD...

oh! yeah! it's valentine's...

soooo... Happy Valentine's Day !

*bleurgh (did i spell it correctly?)

(wait! is there such a word?)

whatever.

i had to blog today. i reckon that i can blog every mondays and wednesdays.

oh yeah, monday blues sets in while the "lurve" is in the air.

i need a story, a really sad story.

what a hazy day today. seems like the air is very much dusty, and the sun's not helping much. no wonder people gets sick, like me. having a really bad sore throat when i woke up today. now, i'm okay again. i'm really sensitive to dust. anyone knows?

alright. no one.

just not in the mood. i think i belong to some unxplained generation of this century. sounds really bad. so bad, i couldn't spell explained, properly, as xplained.

yes, i know. i do not need to be reminded for academic things that i have yet to finish up. but well, you put in the effort to remind me. so i should complete those things?

yes, i know i should listen and do.

that's where commando comes in. command and do. command-o.

oh what a sucky word.

i'm not feeling lucky. i feel like i'm mutating. you know. the kind where your bones pokes out of your skin and your muscles grow so big till it becomes like food allergy. and veins barged out like there's an adrenaline rush. your feets and hands grows bigger. but your ass remains that size. and you hair drops, your head is bald.

okay. ENOUGH.

yuck.

can't believe i typed that.

haha.

let's go get things done.

buaiz.

balloons and roses, money and love, shouldn't be put together...

there is always something, in the middle of everything...

simpler terms? "dee siao"
there's always a "anything, in between of "yes" and "no"
there's always a "stick", in between of two "balls"
there's always a orange light, in between a green one and a red one
there's always bound to have something "lah", really "lor"...

so today? as usual. went to the "chalet" and led the life of a poor young man. poor as in no more speckaroos.

so yeah, nevertheless, enjoyed today, remember today, and enjoyed the companionship of one and all.

oh yeah! i'm so sorry to have overslept, thanks for the breakfast! =) *whoever bought it, =O

and yes, i'm so sorry to have played a fool out of myself and anyone that's involved. i'm terribly sorry to have played a disastrous prank. and i'm terribly sorry to have notified 4 people that there's a "hantu" on the sixth floor storeroom.

and yes, i'm terribly out of luck today. lost twenty over "fake" dollars.

that's my day.

just like a good old man, under the void deck, listening to funeral song, and smoking his hard pack away...

not much meaning, it's the zen way of enjoying life.

and i've noticed...

all the beauties fell sick today.
flu, fever, cough, whatever...
i wonder if she is,
damn!
better not...

oh well...

not saying if you ain't sick today, you ain't a beauty...
it simply means you are living with the pink of health,
and pink
my dear friends,
is a lovely colour...

AGREE "MAH"? =)

geee...

4th day of lunar new year?

oh well.

i've looked through the catalogue, one that says "TP is 4 U!"
haha,
and it made me feel real dumb.
living in my own suspense as many others in there are living with something to their name.

especially that "mediacorp-made-to-fame" school beau.
haha.

nothing interesting.
nothing me.
nothing you.

like i said, there's always somthing in between of everything. the possibility is there...

oh! did i mention that i am one person that easily succumbs to peer pressure?
believe it man! haha... 'cos i dare not.

of course, there's always a chance in everything... as well...

and it's the third day of the chinese lunar new year...

so what? , =) , so what?

i'm just like a salesman this year. one that hasn't hit his target. for? for the Ang Bao collection scheme.yeah, missed his target.

well, i'm also a salesman last year. also one, that has not hit his target. targets? of acheiving one's maximum potential.

haha. that's crap lah. get a life.

first day, rather happening. then it died down.
second day, happening. became worse.

and both days? the common factor? a dog is present.
one male, one female.
same pattern one. (all dogs looks the same to me)
and yeah, age is close enough. one three, one close to two and a half? around there.

DOG? WHY DOG?

because i love dogs =)

that's why. *grrrrrr

you know.

when things gets too complicated, too much, too "over",
love can turn into hatred,
friendship to rivalry,
kinship to whatever,
and
whatever that is bad, turns sour and worse.

new year, new year, new year...

yeah it is one new year.

without the new year mood around me.

'cos i'm just not the one you need...

let's do it again...

yup, done up some furnishings. it's white. and a little feminine. oh well. it just appeals to me. oh c'mon, you fantastic people ! let me have a change. let me see if white is better than black. (duh)

haha.

but some parts are still quite screwed up. but i don't know where. do tell me.
just like a previous job i've done. something always seems to be missing. and i can never tell of what is it.

and so,

that brings us to the starting of the post.

WHAT? you haven't start? haha.

around this time. what else can i be doing. yes. waiting for my delivery. like very bad eh. delivery, delivery. oh well. just act like you don't know. TRY TO. that i'm waiting for a delivery. then it won't sound very bad.

mission failed. is not able to get a shoe to my liking. why. why. tell me why. i'm fussy. that's why. haha. oh well. live with it.

i really want to scan my buddy's singaporepools ticket for those Arsenal fans out there and post it REALLY BIG here. haha. super hilarious. one win is all you need man. cheers!

if you want to win, win it big and chio-fully. hmm, now what's that word?

who cares.

oh well, i sort of screwed my BPFP test up. threw away 18 marks. *SNAP* just like that. no one bothers too. it's just a CDS, i've always told myself. and yeah, it's only a CDS. C : CROSS, D: DISCIPLINARY, S: SUBJECT. ask me more.

haha.

and you think i'm the most guai lan?

sob sob. you think so?

sian.

later got what tv show arh?

good bye.
take care.

and people tell me, she's attached somehow...

You Have A Type B+ Personality

B+ You're a pro at going with the flow You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer A total joy to be around, people crave your stability. While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity. Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done You're passionate - just selective about your passions

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others. Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel. You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations. A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict. You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

say, when are you going to ...

*rolls the eye balls*

it's such a coincidence. so much so that, i don't want to type this post. but i arrived here to change a link so i thought, hmmm, why don't i conveniently type one post? anyway, it's within three clicks of the mouse.

which link? check the man out -> Javen Ong (psst, it's his life. don't mess with the best)
yeah, that's a word of caution.

so yeah. windy evening right now. dinner? where's my dinner? haha, yeah, i've called for delivery.
holy! my notes are flying all around the room. it's like a internal tornado.
haha, that's so fish. exagerrating things over the moon and the rainbow.

so you didn't catch anything fish've typed? well, that's typical. *winks

and fish's studying? why are there notes being stirred up by the wind?

oh no, fish ain't studying. he is just plain lazy to pack his things. that explains it all. it's a natural phenomenon/sighting/whatever of a underwater being.

and who came up with this underwater being kinda joke? who ? HUH ? WHO?

oh well, fish is hungry. fish is tired. and fish is enjoying every bit of what "wu ping dao" have to offer.




















any case, "wu ping dao" refers to channel five.

nothing spectacular, just wanting to make things seem longer. oh well.

*shrugs*

what a crappy day.

good evening.
good luck.
good bye.

realising how fun things can get; realising how dumb things can become...

oh god...

yes, when fish posts one too many in a day.

it has gotta mean that the day is terrible for him.

he's not enjoying today.

and of course, today sucks.

monday blues.

haiz.

good night.

ask your gf loh, ask your gf loh, ask your gf loh...

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Your an original! Helpful to anyone in need and
always willing to lend a hand, you take action
but not through violence, people listen to you
for you have a knack for giving wonderful
advice! Many look up to you and you try your
best not to let them down. You have many
friends steadfast or no who consider themselves
lucky to be near you. You may have been hurt in
the past but you dont let that stand in your
way! You have a wonderful outlook on life and
try to see the good in people which is an
awesome gift!


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this wouldn't hurt a bit

and what were you thinking? *grins

yeah, one little teeneeee weeeneeee post before i leave my home for the day.
oh my god. did i say MY? i'm so sorry. my dad's home for the day. and hmm, won't be home till midnight? oh come on. who really cares about me and my time of home-arrival.

gosh. thanks buddy. you've reminded me that if i took the term tests, i have to take back those term tests. and hokay. results then.

i might get good results. i might get bad. it's the latter that i'm expecting. WHY? 'COS THIS FISH HERE IS SO DISTRACTED DURING THE TERM TEST. that's why. oh well, heck it lah. like they say. there's always other components to cover up the term test. look on the brighter side. seems dim though.

did i say i was distracted? distracted with what? by what? hmmm. friends and some other nonsense shit.

oh my god.
i'm starting to regret that i didn't study well for my term test. regrets eh. too late lah brother. *pat pat*
*sit at one corner*
BOOO HOOOOOO~

today is such a short day. like i'm left with half a day to rot. no life. and the temperature ain't making things any better. looks hot out there. is it? i don't know. haven't step out of the enclosure. oh well. what to do.

time to enjoy some water sprinkling.
time to go to schooooooooooooooool.
time to search for new pictures.......

so yeah.

good luck.
good day.
good bye.

do you love him, or me...

yes? no?

if all decision making consists of only two options, things might be easier. life can be simpler. and of course, it's either the correct decision or the wrong one.

we make decisions. often, we disappoint others. okay. not "we". shall use the term "i". i disappoint people. *nods head* i see alot of people doing that already. hokay. i'm sorry.

i thought ya, one post before i go to bed, one post after i bathe. one post after i keep my books. and one post, before the sun comes out.

it's has just came to me that, everyone has their own shit in their lame life. it's not how you handle the shit. it's how you flush the shit away. get this clear. even if you flush the shit away, the toilet bowl may still carry stains. those little brown dots? yeah, the imperfections of life. smelly eh ? nope. IT STINKS.

so yeah. tomorrow or rather 10 hours from now, i'll be sitting for some call-it-open-book test that is only 30%. give me one good reason why i should study for it and not work harder on my project.

reason?

'cos i might fail my project. hell knows.heaven knows. everyone knows that i don't do good in this kind of subject call 100% COURSEWORK.YAY!!!!!!. fish chen is there, sighing his way out, oh hell no~

why? 'cos i hate consistency. that's why.

perception error? whatever you call it. fuck it.

so how? if you failed you start from the beginning.

find your true love.
true love rejects you.

go back.

find your true love.

failed

find your true love.

gone.

find your true love.

realising that you're reaching the peak.

last words..

live each day, as if tomorrow never comes.

and last question.

earn so much money for what? tomorrow may not come also WHAT.

zo lor, wo men zhou XIAN.

sounds so cool.

ba da da da da aaaaaa

i'm loving it.

=D

good night ladies and gentlemen...

things always gets complicated...

and you just don't understand, do you?

sounds familiar eh? maybe not to you. but to me, definitely. i've been hearing this from several people and yes, at different occassions, and it just occur to me, what is it that i simply don't understand? you tell me, now.

the weather's a killer. my brain hurts, my stomach aches and i feel ton of a shit head. just turn and look out of your window. there's plenty of sunlight. unhealthy. they kills. they suck the water out of your body, which you need. and no. i'm not going out to face the sun.

but there's many people out there. i could be the lucky one being sheltered from the sun. but who cares. i need to go out and complete my stuffs.

that's the negative side of my life. the positive? i am able to give myself some time to type here while the world is rotating.

i've been keeping things to myself at a very extreme level. i don't tell things to anyone now. and it kinda hurts my emotional ability. it really does. so if i don't tell anyone, i just type it out here?

words ain't gonna describe what my thoughts are. words describe what my actions are, and my actions will be.

emotionally? how do you feel emotionally? empty? filled with love and things liddat? awwww~ man.. if i go on like this, i'll never achieved what i want. so yeah, i guess i have to skip all this phases.

when you're feeling like one of a shit head, you'd love to play some games and let it out. recalling, i do have fun times. it's not about who wins or who loses. it's about how much you've let out.

of course, winning will be a factor of how much you've let out.

do you understand me ?

really.

buaiz.

rather awkward, it really needs two hands to clap...

no, i don't want to study

yes! i'm looking forward as the lions conquers the mouse.

that is, Singapore vs Indonesia tomorrow. Live at 7.30. i'm there to watch it. muahahaha. people, pray for me, i might be killed by indonesians, given my uncontrollable "hao lian". and i said, i'm proud? haha.

so whatever.

just whack hard hard on indonesia, confirm win.

eat your pork chops.

hokay, enough of that. today the sun is once again merciless, tell me why...but then, as i'm typing this. super cooling "leh". so ya, forgive the sun. =)

I LOVE HER. SHE DON'T LOVE ME. HOW. I AM GOING TO DIEEEEEE. HOW HOW HOW.

sob sob.

how touching.

but wait!

I LOVE HIM. I DON'T THINK HE KNOWS. HOW?!!!!

hokay. so who's at fault?

haha.

did anyone watch tian cai go go go? should watch it people. really is dumb. are you dumb? haha.

so yeah, watching zhong yi da ge da. better. always got the "babes". freaky.

it's the term test! and i'm gonna study on monday!
YAY!

why? 'cos, today, busy writing out new-year-list and helping my mother do household chores.

"AWWWWWWWWWWWWW~ so sweeeet" yes i heard you say it. some where deep in your heart. i know i know.... =D

and tomorrow? all out to support the lions people!

so yeah, i'm left with monday morning. freaky.

what about now?

i'm TURNING in.

good night

good bye.

you don't need good command of english to let him know your feelings...

http://users.skynet.be/marc-lam/


i'm proud

and yes, i love to boast. muahahahaha.

if anyone believe that, do please drop a comment at the comment(0) there, at the end of this post.

i'd really like to find out. s-e-r-i-o-u-s-l-y

oh yah. let's get back to work.

oh ya! btw, that was the first thought i woke up with today.

hokay hokay, back to the main thing.

look at the sun man. no mercy. for today lah. if i'm going to heaven somehow, when i die, i am bound to slaughter the sun. for the good of man kind. alright, on days as such. hooray! cheers! i'm beginning to hear them. *bow* thank you thank you.

oh well, it wouldn't have been made possible without you all. *smoooooch*

correct huh? there will be no good without the bad, understand this, master this, and you will be like me. make people feel good. don't feel good yourself. be bad. real bad. so that you can help ALOT of others to be really good people. =)

so, be a bad ass today. and yup. if you're SO smart enough from the beginning.

MAKE ME A GOOD PERSON. muahahahaa.

oh well, projects projects projects.

after that? term test, term test term test.

holy shit.

every semester it's always liddat. i kinda miss PBL. but NO~~~ PBL sucks.

so hokay, i'm alright with the routines.

we're all slaves to routines, aren't we?

hehe.

note.

if you're a chinese, i'm your friend. do say hi to me. if not, i'll say hi to you.
if you're a malay. i won't say hi to you. but if you know me, being nice, please say hi to me.
if you're a indian. i will try to look for you. even if i found you, i wouldn't say hi. and OH PLEASE COME ON, if you know me, DON'T TALK TO ME. you're perfect by doing that.

and just in case, you're in the middle of nowhere. you're my best friend =)

ciao~

take care peeps.

drink lotsa water today.

buaiz.

=)

and for all it may seem, the pitcher is full...

when women rules out man

this calls for cohesiveness. haha.

hokay. not the right way to start my post.

so yeah.

my god! i'm tired today. like anyone does. can sleep anywhere. so yup, just as expected, slept all the way from tampines interchange to bedok interchange. had a really nice rest. and slept all the way back, till simei that is. can you imagine how worn out i am. oh god. pity me.

like any other eight am sessions, i always sit up straight on my "tee lum" and watch out of the window. thinking, yeah, the sun's not out yet. i should lie back down. but. NO~~~ i got to attend RITA's class. for goodness sake. it's a LAB session. cannot afford to be absent. and NO~~~ had to do all the dumb work.

it's not like i don't to do work. but who does work at eight AM ? alright. Fish.Chen.Binte.Ahmad.Sheares.SundraMoothi does his work at eight AM.

hmm long name ain't it? haha.

so ya, that's practically my day. today. till now. don't want to blog when the bachelor's on. funny isn't it? always blog on the day when there's bachelor. and NO~~~ i don't watch the bachelor. my sister does. i sit beside her.

comparison time ! one man watching twenty-five ladies, and one girl watching one man. tell me which group of people is the creator of the bachelor targeting. and yes.. tAAAa dAAA~ the answer. Ladies, of course. =)

if bi equals to two, so that makes Bisexuals having two sexes? okay. then i'm Bisexual. haha. or did i get the terms wrong? hmmmm.... *ponders... think think think... sips a little honey...

fuckerise people, fockerise.

how do you actually tell?

when...

that person's likings is almost similar to yours. be it author of books, genre of cds. whatever. anything.

when a happening five day week, three of which, the top he wears is of the same colour as you.

when, yes, twenty four hours a day, you are still seeing him after eight thirty PM.

and of course, sms crap to each other. and yes of course again, this, most prolly you will know it clearest yourself.

you always argue with him? this is one point, still trying to be proven

he's always smiling around you

you always feel happy around him

you stroke your hair always, and he turns to look at you...

almost there, the rest you people figure it yourself...

i wonder...

if she know,
you're looking from afar.. at her.. (DUH~)
if she know,
you're caring for her... without her knowing..
if she know,
you seem to be around when she's near..
if she know,
you are always thinking about her...

bye.

take care people ! =)

it's gonna be a busy weekend.

taking the extra mile, going the distance...

'ma com's down

so yes, that would means i'm disconnected from the world when i'm at home. but who cares right, I CARE. haha. freaking need a repair done soon. by this weekend. definitely.

so yup, i'm now in school. crazy time. like 8:50pm? maybe i should head home. and then i'll feel better. stay in school, also nothing to do. might as well go home, and sleep my ass off.

but being the good 'o me. i stayed back. why. simple 'cos i keep thinking back that i'd have nothing to do. that's why. i'm in school.

okay. i'm going round in circles.

but basically, i don't like to be intruded when i blog.
so you know, try blogging in school, is like letting the Administrator sees this part.
oh ya, she'd better see this part.

asssssss

holeeeee..

if you have any memory of any sort, you'd have tell it came from this movie entitled "meet the fuckers" or fockers. or fuckers. oh nvm. whatever. fuckers fockers. it's one hilarious movie. and of course, happening movie as well.

gayed.

oh well, thought i can get down to do some project stuffs. but no! i can't... i'm starting to feel stupid and loss-of-memory today.
'cos i simply can't remember what thoughts i have for the day.
and therefore, unable to type it down.

but there's one interesting one.

and i'll like to end with it.

tell me.

why do girls wear jeans? =P

oh well, eyes hurting

good night.

bye for now.

take care.

the music of the night....