haiya, this is so depressing la

turning 21. don't feel good and i don't know why. feels like shoulders are getting heavier. heads getting bigger. more things are coming in. to be more independent. to make more decisions. to be more... adult.

no celebrations please. i don't feel the need. and i don't know why.

haiya. this is all, so depressing can.

been feeling bad, my fault
feeling tired, my fault
lesser and lesser resources, my fault
no plans, my fault
make wrong decisions, my fault
cannot speak appropriately, my fault
no position, my fault
cannot work, my fault
more complaining, my fault
more things left undone, my fault
cannot meet work expectations, my fault

sigh. it's all my fault la.

sorry.
i'm just not ready.

good night. sweet dreams.
hope tomorrow's good for you. and for me.

i wish i wish, i'm just a filthy f***ing rich, dying old man...

this is one saturday, man

must have woke up with butter spread over my fingers
had to drop everything i held
then i dropped this merchandise item
i went "ops...."
she fingered the item, spotted a crack, and say "sorry sir, ahh, u see..."
point point
"then how?" i ask
"you got to buy it"
paid for it with much dismay

sigh.

lucky, my girl was there to revive the item.
thanks.

done quite a bit of thinking today, since i'm rather free

found out that:

an insecure female can actually forsake a possible workable relationship with the man she loves, just friends.

i'm rather worthless right now, and i ain't liking this feeling.

sigh.

i want to prove my worth. but how?

felt so despised by everyone.

felt .... low...

oh well... think think only... where are the actions?!

good night.

positive attitude... this smile :) might bring me go another mile in life...

phew, it's my off day! :)

all smiles, today is my off day.
meaning a terribly long awaited week end.
today's got a paint job to complete, and something else to ponder about.

yeah. there goes my off day. :P

short. sweet. and simple.
just like you.

wondering why i logged in and had an update.
guess i just didn't want this to die off.

a new year. a new beginning?
it's strange for someone to do this sort of thing on the 19th when it's usually done on the 1st. so yeah, skip it.

have settled down, rather poorly, in NS.
have settled down, financially.
have settled down, spiritually.
have settled down, relationship-ly? =/

have yet to settle down, learning
have yet to settle down, riddles in life
have yet to settle down, movies
have yet to settle down, presents
have yet to settle down, almost everything else.

and you know i miss you
i hope you miss me too

oh well, big events are coming around the corner
plan plan plan

*headache

so, what are you doing today?

good day. :)

it's all the acts of ego... sorry...