at this moment in time.

i just had a shower. i am still having my headache. i am going to pop my seventh pair of panadol this week. so that i can sleep without pounding in my head. i am wondering what is happening to me. i kind of feel so sorry for myself having this headache. i think i should seek a doctor. i think not. i think i will be fine after a good night's sleep. i am not having a fever. i am starting to cough again. i am not thinking about school. i am not thinking about tomorrow. i am thinking about today. i am thinking about what i would have done otherwise. i do not think i have regrets not doing something. i feel ashamed not being able to accomplish something. i think i should act more. i think maybe i should talk more. i think i should ask more. i should question more. i should be brave. i must be brave. i think i should study. i think i should not study in the first place. i envy people. i feel i should improve. i think i think too much. i think i ate too much. i think i should grab hold of opportunities. i feel that i want to get out of here. i think i am starting to fear here. i think i maybe developing psychological here. i hope i am not developing anything here. i want to say all these "i" out somewhere. i think i should instead type them out here. i think i feel better after typing them out. i do not think i have been cured of my headaches. i think it maybe my aching neck and shoulder. i think it is them that is causing my headache. i think i need sleep. i think i should go sleep now. That's not me. it's I.

Today(Sunday) is a hot day. Normal day. Today(Monday) is back to school day. Good for those without school. Hope it's good for those with work! Hope everyone is less blue, if not, no blues! Good luck! Good day! :)

it's hard not to think...

If You're Not The One - Daniel Bedingfield

this is for october.

plain october. a month so plain, it does not have any school holidays nor public holidays. looking a the schedule for october, it's just routine mondays to fridays and the weekends, which passes so fast. and it's back to monday again. not to mention the forever so squeezy mrt trains and the mad rush in the morning and evening. then there's still deadlines to meet, tests to study for, presentations to rehearse for and reports to type for. then you may just realize. is that how october should be? of course, october has its amazing points too. there're important occasions to note. and october baby to buy presents for. however, just to note, there're the challenges too. one after another, one after another. improving situations or better still, overcoming them, one after another and one after another. they just keep coming. but then before you know it, it's back to the routinely mondays to fridays, looking forward to weekends. like i said, plain october. at least for me. hope it's better for you! :)

i've been taking panadols (or paracetamol if you like) before i sleep. if not, headaches, and i can't sleep. shit.

am i dying? i hope i am