a little space i call my own

is it really true~

haha. i never place any bets.*holy ring above* but! my father did. haha. okok not my decisions. but who cares? if he wins. duh~

feeling real sick today. maybe is the heat? but i doubt so. don't really know the reason. just that i'm feeling sick. don't want to go out or what so ever.

despite all my complex feelings, i found some entertainment on my own. played some games, read books and watch the tv. haha. like the usual stuffs. *sigh*

hey! i studied today! don't know why but i'm feeling abit no life. study, play, hang out. yucks. is this really the life i want ? this aimless, alone so called life? hmm...

in life, there's many i should, i shouldn't. when will i ever make the right decisions? i am beginning to see myself as someone who doesn't know how to differentiate between the black and white. does 1+1 really give me 2 ? *doubtful look*

must things turn out to be this way? starts off with only one short message via the phone. stop grinning at me! *scowls* i know i typed something wrong. i know it. but. is it really true? are you feeling what i think you are feeling? i don't dare to ask.

CHESTNUT TREE (the Honesty) -
of unusual beauty, does not want to impress, well-developed
sense of justice, vivacious, interested, a born diplomat,
but irritates easily and sensitive in company, often due to a
lack of self confidence, acts sometimes superior,
feels not understood loves only once,
has difficulties in finding a partner.

as lonely as one could get