a little space i call my own

never had this feeling before

woke up with a runny nose today. argh~ feeling damn sick. but i told myself that i must study today. haha. i never believed last minute work pays off. but i always believe how much you get back is equivilant to how much hard work you want to put in. so last minute work is still work done. so i am expecting results. haha.

what does the sky today want? the sun is up there. it's usual routine. going up, providing unncessary heat, and going down. but the rain keeps coming down. the on and off. half cold half hot. argh~ making feel worse. how to study in such an environment? but i did.

finally, i felt better. the nose stopped running. i decided to take a nap. or rather i need a nap. haha. so i took one. a mistake i must say. as i woke up. the runny nose is back! felt like a flu already! god~ save me. if only he could. puhlease...

yup yup. tomorrow's the first day of everything. it's a monday. god damn it. i hate mondays. tomorrow's my first paper of the exams ya... Business Accounting 1. crazy subject at first i thought. never like it. and never will. i just can't be bothered to study for it. haha. i see no point.

didn't had a good sleep over the night. and when will i ever have one? i am thinking really really hard. there's always a dream. there's always a nightmare. there's always something or someone in my sleep. not excluding my previous sleep. argh~ i want a peaceful sleep. all the way. from the moment i fell aslp. just let me drop dead till the next morning, awaken by some sickening alarm or anything. *pray* like it will help. although i know there won't be any effect, but it brings about some hope.

feeling mixed up le leh. academic wise. haha. don't know why must this be like this. that be like that. why cannot this be like that. that be like this lei ? hmm... don't tell me it's like this. god damn it.

yes yes yes. i know i know. i won't do it again.

i care.

haha.

yes. i know.

i won't do it again.

*cover ear* god damn it.

seriously, i missed you. but too bad...