Goodbye 2008... Hello 2009!

what a typical line...

but... will you be hearing this today?

where will you be when the clock strikes?

downtown east? flyer? marina bay? or some fancy fancy hotel?

some of you will be across the borders

and how i envy you

some of you will be partying all night long

no envies, just don't drink and drive

2008 has been a transition year i guess

ORD to full time student

and still am

kind of still in the process, reflected by the awesomely catastrophical exam results

it's bad

so bad i don't even wanna talk about it

so bad it's going to stay in 2008

and i don't want to bring it to 2009

therefore

for 2009

the resolution, is it call resolutions?

whatever, it's WORK HARD

i woke up today, this morning, just only

to read something in my email inbox

from emailcashpro's guy Kenneth

saying the hardest part is goal setting, while it might be easier to achieve them

since goal setting requires thinking and evaluation of sorts

while achieving them requires you to only work hard

therefore

2009! WORK HARD!

phew! that was fast enough

:)

work hard. to have more money.

save. save. save.

save appropriately. spend cautiously.

i'm a full time student, not going to invest, unless the chance comes and the time is ripe

work hard. to keep relationship going.

family. friends. and you.

i failed my friends and neutral towards family.

guess that leaves only you.

work hard. towards honours track.

keeping 3.5 wasn't so hard in poly. but struggling in Uni.

3.5 minimum for honours track. tell me what to do lah.

so hard. there's so many china people. there's so many zai people.

work hard. to complete 2B license.

it's coming to an end soon, i hope

been learning for 2 months already?

TP's not far away, the nightmares again

so work hard.

that seems to be the only thing on my mind

for 2009

i guess my life is satisfactory

but it's not good enough

i want the best

but right now, it's just not good enough

so... work hard.

looking at my desk calendar,

sent to me by snail mail

from the bank that insures me

and i must ask for it!

for January 2009

"Success is not a destination. It's a journey"

by Zig Ziglar

who's that?

well, will agree to that

although i feel that

success is a journey that is plagued.

a destination with no light.

anyway,

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU! whereever you might be

HAPPY 2009!

CHEERS!

i've got my perfect companion, time to work hard for the perfect life with her...

can a picture really express a thousand words?

wow, $2 COE leh!

COE for small cars drops to historic low of S$2

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/390840/1/.html

COE has plunged (what are you waiting for?)

just made me wonder how many bidders were there for this round

perhaps just a tactic to surge the amount of the next bid

so buyers beware, the next bid might rocket

then again, it's all speculation

how high can it fly, we'll sit and see ('cos no money to buy car)

then hopefully, we'll see $1!

till then, i'm still working hard to be at least part of the bidding once...

from Channelnewsasia

Restroom Association wants 70% of public toilets to achieve 3-star rating by 2010

i didn't know singpore has a restroom association

seems like anything can have an association

why not a clean-table-clean-chair association for hawker center

don't they realise it's the same for the outside too?

but then these hawker centers will go to the extreme

by suggesting to undergo total renovation

wah... pretty pretty decoration

only let the consumers suffer, because that would be a pretty pretty neat reason to increase prices

so much for assisting people make through the economic downturn

anyway, it probably meant that

in order to make it through this downturn

perfect your skills of cleaning toilet!

make yourself the one that can change toilet ratings

then market yourself properly

earn money

start company

and make a "sure-at-least-3-star-rating" toilet cleaning marketing slogan

then restroom association wants you

to help clean toilet

you train people to achieve that

they get paid

you get the money *drools*

okay

snap out of it

crazinesss

so much for trying to be an innovative entrepreneur...

take note ladies!

S'pore ranked 16th most expensive shopping locations in the world "In Asia, Singapore's retail rentals ranked 4th, with Hong Kong retaining its position as the region's priciest shopping destination. "

please don't grumble if we don't bring you to shop in Singapore,

needless to say, hong kong, with the champion position

sigh, shopping paradise of asia

is the champion killer for pocket

so people,

flock to Malaysia for your groceries and petrol, Thailand for your apparels and accessories!

start cleaning toilets!

and strike hot for the small cars!

good luck!

if anything can go wrong, it is now. if anything is to be right, when?

argh, one month has passed

since the last post

then

i was comparing between clever people and stupid people

now

i realise i am "stupid people"

struggling with uni

i mean really

just can't cope

not the stress, but the requirements

seems so awful now

but what to do

life does goes on

and reading week too

five subjects

and five papers

ace all of them?

sounds like the impossible

how about Bs ?

i would say only if i'm lucky

and Cs ?

probably the way to be

but there's this english paper

i hated most

and had to hope the chinese mainlanders

push me up

then again, if i need to take english modules

wouldn't it be a waste of timetable slots

then again, if i need not take

probably i was just being fortunate

just a quick summary of what to foresee

just a quick summary of what is behind me

what i am reading now

european his-tor-y

what i am going to do later

motorcycle practically

probably not a good idea

studying would be the main focus

ahhhhh!!!

stress they call it

ahhhh!!!!

>:(

clever people versus stupid people

which are you?

i believe i belong to the stupid people

i'm not being humble or anything

i really feel stupid, the very first moment i know things

before anything. today i woke up on the wrong side of the bed

usually, it's the end of the bed, where i would stretch out my leg and get myself up

today, it's the left side of the bed, i rolled down and end up having to pull my-whole-self up

now that's embarrasing, and that means, today is a bad day. 

and yes it is.

forget to bring my mouse when i brought my laptop out

train just left when i reach the platform, breakfast all soggy

and blah blah blah, sigh, let me wake up from the end of my bed please

anyway, yes, clever versus stupid

inspired by an email, actually

so just some stupid thoughts of mine

don't really need to read if i were you, just close the browser. now.

1. Constuct a sentence using numbers 1 to 10. (1, 2, 3, ... , 10)

clever people would most probably plainly go, because of their extremely high intelligence, "huh?" , "i had better things to do." , "mathematically impossible" , "what's the percentage?" , "is this a trick question?" blah blah blah...

now stupid people, will do this:

Ah Lek was asked to make a sentence using 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9,10. 

Not only did he do it 1 to 10, he did it again from 10 back to 1. 

This is what he came up with..... 

1 day I go 2 climb a 3 outside a house to peep. But the couple saw me, so I panic and 4down. The man rushed out and wanted to 5 with me. I ran until I fell 6 and threw up. So I go into 7-eleven and grabbed some 8 to throw at him. Then I took  a 9 and try to stab at him. 10 God he run away. 

10 I put the 9 back and pay for the 8 and left 7-eleven.  Next day I called my boss and told him I was 6.  He said 5 , tomorrow also no need to come back 4 work. He also asked me to go climb a 3 and jump down! I don't understand. I am so nice 2 him but I don't know what he 1. 

outrageously incredible piece of work. 1 point to stupid people. thanks for the email !

then i see clever people doing really clever things:

there's them trying to design routes to siam ERP

there's them chopping tables with packets of tissue paper

there's them trying to use statistics to determine recession technical or not

there's them making streets so powerfully litted up for F1

there's them making cigarettes labelled

there's them reading newspapers in a sardine-packed train

there's them trying to earn the big bucks in a relatively short time

there's them that get super grades by studying smart, not hard

there's them that gets everything themselves yet lacks nothing

then the stupid people:

there's them waking up earlier than the ERP can *beep* them

there's them buying back lunch to office, so as to wayang and enjoy the air con and avoid the hassle of getting a table

there's them that just don't know what recession is

there's them that have tickets to see the powerful lights

there's them quit smoking

there's them act sleeping on the priority seats

there's them that earns cents on their grounds

there's them that really studies and reads every word, not realising that the chapter is not tested on

there's them that ignores everything they need to know

'cos not knowing is bliss

i believe i am a happier person because i am stupid

then again, stupid people will put the following:

all the content above is solely fiction

and was done on a half-conscious mind

any coincidence

is obviously a coincident, and thereafter, shall be laughed at, point at this site and say "this guy is stupid." and forget what they have read

in any event, they want to remember.

be stupid.

because. and very very very often sooo true

ignorance is bliss

good night.

stupid people gets smarter, smarter people gets stupid, stupidity cannot be cured...

i reckon

since there's alot for me to do

and i don't feel like doing them

i thought of small and useless additions here

and maybe a quick post

a quick pick up from where i left off

which i'm shamed to say, a long long time ago

i've finished work with Singapore F1, yes! i've been part of history

or so they claimed...

i'm now back to school, NUS that is, and failed 1 mid term test, fuck

i'm now learning my class 2B license, yup yup, i've decided to go ahead

and sucking my savings dry once again

i'm now stuck in uniSIM, waiting for beautiful to finish school, what the hell right, saturday, so much for being a part time sstudentt...

was feeling good, burdens from the mid terms are gone...

but that would normally mean, projects dead lines are nearing,

final year exams are coming

and the much dreaded english exam is coming as well, pray for > band 5 please!

so what happened today

wanted to reach marina at eight thirty, the official time, for pay cheque

but only reached at eleven thirty, thanks for this thing call sleep and waiting

collect pay cheque. skipped breakfast. had lunch. bought a hairband. then now here.

browsing through the internet.

F1 grand prix in Japan caught my attention.

Lewis Hamilton took the pole position!

and NICO? dropped out.

something's really wrong with Singapore's circuit. really.

all the drama and unexpected results really happened here. in singapore's circuit.

but then, because i have biasness towards team ferrari.

maybe the results appears to be more logical to me, for the japan's grand prix

interested junkie. for more coverage: http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/afp_sports/view/382038/1/.html

don't really know since when i am into F1

but yeah, it caught my eye

then went to hear "legal puffs" by mrbrownshow

very interesting, very entertaining, took a few minutes off for the road to one-seven-three-zero

and also, saw the communications technician at uniSIM,

like soooo into communicating lah he can. he did all the talking

just brought me back to the days of NS, and i want to head back

for a short while. for a short-free-burden-free escape.

so males, don't complain NS

it's the only escape from the gahmen we have

because you're part of it

and somehow, paid to protect it

and slowly slowly, you'll see me harping on the gahmen

which i will not do

i'm still feeling bored

maybe i'll go prepare myself for RTT

or just watch some show

or bbc

or cnn

go obama go!

you take care.

endure.

and let us have the strength to carry on.

god bless. amitabha. and blessyouinmalayandtamil.

love.

things should be simpler, and cheaper, in Singapore...

finally i thought about

sleep, 3 hours a day ain't working out for me

i can fall asleep on the bus or the train; a must have singaporean skill

even if we're all packed like sardines in it

and to really master it, you need to be able to sleep, standing, with newspaper flapping your head

no sweat

was doing "America in Singapore" , school stuffs

and realise, i don't have any general knowledge

i don't know who is michael fay

i only know what's on the lecture notes

oh god, school's tougher

but still, people are saying "wah, you so good leh... can study..."

yes, to a certain extent, i do feel good leh that i can study

but you guys are also making the best of not studying, right?

what good can come out of consistent studying...

compiled a "to-do" list

wah, alot leh, die liao la

but closer look, also not alot

it's just that their deadlines are fatally close together

maybe i should show it here, and bore myself, maybe not

Google Chrome @ http://www.google.com/chrome

using this/that now

i'm a browser hopper

IE -> Firefox -> Opera -> Chrome

not as active as some others though

there's always someone better

Chrome is hoping to be something better

Google Chrome is a browser that combines a minimal design with sophisticated technology to make the web faster, safer, and easier.

indeed it is of minimal design, clean and sleek

sophisticated, not to the user

as it really does make web surfing faster and easier

safer... i leave it as that

One box for everything
Type in the address bar and get suggestions for both search and web pages.

now this is interesting, as far as most browsers are trying to do this

i would personally prefer the chrome as basically, it is fast

and other browsers would probably be searching with google as well...

Thumbnails of your top sites
Access your favorite pages instantly with lightning speed from any new tab.

now this is really a not too shabby feature

tabs, we know

favourite pages, we can fix that there

new tabs + fav. pages + pictures and loads really fast can be quite a double edged sword

if your fav. pages (commonly visited pages) is clean,

then no issue

but, if there are some ahem ahem pages... it's good that it loads so fast, then if you closes them just as fast, well, people might just miss it

so for porn, IE =) slow and steady...

Shortcuts for your apps
Get desktop shortcuts to launch your favorite web applications.

this, i've yet to try

so tell me...

i like chrome, nastily neat

however, it seems that being fast has killed off some convenience

then again, it's in the beta stage

so wonder what's coming, will what's coming slow it down?

just try it.

i'm hungry ,tired, thirsty... so poor thing hor?

phew, finally a catch of my breath

things have been, you know,
like the multitudinous multiple shots of digital cameras,
snap snap snap
that fast, till now then i caught my breath.

most naturally, it would be school,
the big thing in my mono life
cannot get into the momentum
and it's already half past semester 1!

so many, many, many pages of readings
that i eventually cultivate a habitual sleeping pattern
so many, many, many deadlines
that i just need to get organized.

school ain't what it used to be
polytechnic studies is really... something
university, is another
i just look forward to working... where they say life goes wrong when you're working

so now i am in troubles

troubles of unable to study properly
troubles of being cut off financially
troubles of having to wake up at five plus am for merely an eight am lesson
troubles of coping with reading and sleeping and not reading but still sleeping

pessimistically, I'm a problematic student, with a tired mind, and endless of troubles...

optimistically, i'm a occupied life form, being pushed around with meaningful tasks, thus a more meaningful world.

bleahs.

good night.

i'm going for 2B... am i not?

monday blues

The rain has fell.
And it has stopped.
The sun is out.
and life moves on.

the weekend was slow and nice.
but today marks the start of a new week.
a week of "Orientation".
a week of "CORS", again.

don't even mention the stress.
it's not even close yet.
oh well, just live life as it is.
live life the way it is.

from http://www.youtube.com/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VmtgnEXjvvI

or even better to view it here.






It's so hilarious. Really.
University students really make full use of feedback survey.
Considering i might be doing one of these
Should i ? start it?

relax relax relax.

hahaha.

it's so funny i can't even type the subtitles for this video.

it's so funny that i can't even get the last part right.

it's so funny that i had to watch it over and over again.

it's so funny that... it's just so funny...

sharing is caring...

What a break...

...
had a break from blogger
'cos i went back to school
back to good old school
back to school trouble
...

well what did i do during the break i settled matriculation helped uni buddy buy his lap walk walk the matric fair eat eat school food at cheap cheap price then went for orientation talks that goes on and on and on then today is CORS registration so troublesome and not hassle free felt like a car salesman bidding for COE somemore results tomorrow then come out but modules all filling up faster than GV vivocity's seats

Well, basically that's it.
I'm back and really sleepy.

i just hate to lose, do you?

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WHY MEN ARE NEVER DEPRESSED



Men Are Just Happier People -- What do you expect from such simple creatures?

Your last name stays put.
The garage is all yours.
Wedding plans take care of themselves.
Chocolate is just another snack.
You can be President.
You can never be pregnant.
You can wear a white T-shirt to a water park.
You can wear NO shirt to a water park.
Car mechanics tell you the truth.
The world is your urinal.
You never have to drive to another gas station restroom because this one is just too icky.
You don't have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt.
Same work, more pay.
Wrinkles add character.
Wedding dress $5000... Tux rental-$100.
People never stare at your chest when you're talking to them.
New shoes don't cut, blister, or mangle your feet.

One mood all the time.

Phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat.
You know stuff about tanks.
A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase.
You can open all your own jars.
You get extra credit for the slightest act of thoughtfulness.
If someone forgets to invite you, he or she can still be your friend.
Your underwear is $8.95 for a three-pack!
Three pairs of shoes are more than enough.
You almost never have strap problems in public.
You are unable to see wrinkles in your clothes.
Everything on your face stays its original color.
The same hairstyle lasts for years, maybe decades.
You only have to shave your face and neck.
You can play with toys all your life.
One wallet and one pair of shoes -- one color for all seasons.
You can wear shorts no matter how your legs look.
You can "do" your nails with a pocket knife.
You have freedom of choice concerning growing a mustache.
You can do Christmas shopping for 25 relatives on December 24 in 25 minutes.

No wonder men are happier.

:) really meh... i not happy man...

Of Course, Of Course

SINGAPORE: In the last three years, an average of 1,000 Singaporeans gave up their citizenship each year.
Deputy Prime Minister and Home Affairs Minister Wong Kan Seng said their reasons for doing so vary, and these range from marriage to foreigners, to yearning for a different environment.
Most of them took up new citizenship in countries in Southeast Asia, the United States and Australia.
Mr Wong gave this update in reply to a written question from Non-Constituency MP Sylvia Lim.
She had asked how many Singapore citizens emigrated from Singapore in the last three years, the countries they emigrated to and their reasons for doing so.
Mr Wong said those who emigrate generally do not declare this to the Immigration & Checkpoints Authority when they leave.
So the only available data which gives an indication of the number of emigrants from Singapore is the number of Singaporeans who have given up their citizenship and left Singapore. - CNA/vm

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/361829/1/.html

I, er, can't help but notice this piece of news on Channel News Asia website.
But really, i didn't expect this many Singaporeans leaving home a year.
1,000 , does that mean at least 1,000 jobs open up a year?
and probably some other years later, it will be 1,001... me included.

I was walking past this place in Singapore lately,
and was talking about migrating to places like Australia, Canada, even London
It almost appears that i am avoiding things here, locally
and this news pop out

And then i thought of the many repeated similar surveys
that i took during NS days
questions abit on whether i will leave singapore
my thoughts were positive

I served NS, and will be completing my further studies here as well
so, will i eventually leave this place?
my family's here too. will i will i?
and of course, it has also crossed my mind that i should also take my further studies overseas, and to make things better, shift my whole family there...

but then, thinking cautiously, is Singapore that bad?
i mean, in terms of freedom, we do have lots.
I mean, restriction is also a form of freedom?
too much of something might cause imbalance

then i guess i'll just have to stay and watch how everything changes
four years would be a suitable period
before i really add myself to the numbers
and be that one thousand and one

having said so much, do i have what it takes? ... ... ... ...

ORD loh!

how close

...
was i going to give up typing this
was i going to give up signing in
...

my Opera appears to be loading pretty slow nowadays
can't seem to load even www.blogspot.com
how nasty
but then again, it behaved, and here i am

maybe, just maybe, like the owner
abit slow today, just totally insensitive and slow
then again, not really slow in playing my games
completed "Brave Story" and keeping myself "high" with "DJ Max 2"

i'm just a boy
a boy that is afraid of everything
a boy that doesn't want to face anything
a boy that just want to avoid everything and everyone, today

who is there to help ?
ashame i am, to ask even for a pinch
i don't deserve help
i deserve hell, only

so send me down
that's my life
always on the down side
maybe, just maybe, it will head up

or maybe not...

some stupid thought struck me while on the way home today
if the headlines "NSF ORD-ed from life", and the content is me dead just before this friday 3pm.
when i'm suppose to take my pink IC
will it be a suitable ending for my life? hmmm...

before closing this, just a gentle reminder to myself.
from NUS website.

Going far? Be ready to give up

Sharing his experience with graduands, NUS President Prof Shih Choon Fong passed along some words of wisdom which his mother taught him: "It's very good to want something, but you mustn't want something so much that you can't bear to live without it. To go far, be ready to give up what you already have."

He said this principle has helped him through life. "It taught me to be passionate, but not obsessed; to be determined, but not define myself by either my successes or my failures. I have learned that non-attachment gives the mental and emotional resilience to get beyond failures and setbacks. You can also enjoy your successes without taking yourself too seriously," he said.

"I take comfort in knowing that ultimately, my decisions at each of the crossroads (in his life) were not held back by the familiar, the comfortable, or attachment to what I might have accomplished," he added.

i love these words, somehow
hit me right there
perhaps, NUS might be the right choice afterall
don't want to think so much today

have a good night rest
have a sweet sweet dream

i need a good sleep
or maybe i just need to close them, forever...

just how close am i to death...

it's not about being good

it's about being the best seller
yes, i've been wondering
is it more important to sell well?
or to do well...

i guess it's all up to our...
principles? of living?
gosh, sounds like some polytechnic subject
but i guess you'd see more of "#1 best seller"

than "#1 best writer" ... ... ...
and so i guess that's how you differentiate things/blogs
commercial  / non-commercial
and not public / private

although there are some blogs that are for invited readers only
but i don't know how it works
i never got invited
and i guess they don't even know i exist

lots of thinking nowadays
mindless actions doesn't account for anything
since i'm out of army
but there is a difference between ORD and ORNS

but to hell with them both anyway
doesn't really matter now
don't look too far ahead
or rather, i have a 10 year plan to keep to

so if everything goes smoothly, (usually it doesn't)
and if everything is accordingly as planned, (again, it won't)
or everything i hope happens as planned, (false hopes)
i will be stable and a good man 10 years from now

note: not a  "best seller"
but a good one

good night! sweet dreams!
and take care... ... ...

if everything's in place, i just want to live for the ten year plan... 

300

not the show/movie
but this is my 300th post

ever since this thing is in place
nothing to boast about, i know you guys/gals hit this number way before me

but still, yes! i've hit 300 :)

and i'm still alive
thank god, and buddha, and people that give me love and money
thank you
and i want to be, still, typing away

"ORD" is revolving me this week and probably the next
ORD BBQ, ORD movie/dinner, ORD this ORD that
phew, ORD ORD ORD
like right now, also ORD, give me a break, let me feel that it's a day

a special day, a day of relief
a day really to celebrate, a day where i claim myself back
a day where i really have my mind back
a day where ... i won't have to really worry about dying ever so easily

but then thinking back, do i really deserve what i have experienced in army?
people say very relax, very shiok, very nice, very good
really meh?
i think there are soo many people better, so many, just too many, really

better stop grumbling
poison my mind set
not very nice
better things to do

oh well, NUS administration really troublesome
a little bit here
then a little bit there
then a little bit here and there

it's just so different
pay school fees
still must administer alot of paperwork myself
okay la, school fees not really i pay

but what the hell =/
better do now, if now, sigh.

take care. good luck.

good morning. good afternoon. good night. have a light supper.

sweet dreams.

i love you.

i've been thinking about my own death, far too often...

"jia liat" july

not the kind of 1st july i was hoping for (since it's ORD month)
was reminded, seventeen more days to official ORD
still in that slumber-ing mood
and spoilt every possible plan

could have been better
could have been nicer
could have been satisfactory
just a little bit...

woke up on the wrong side of the bed
"mabbe"
thinking back of 1st july
"hai"

next money that is dropping from the sky
due on october? (correct me if i am wrong)
i usually am
and still is

maybe i should be more positive
maybe i should be more bright(brighter)
maybe i should be more sensitive
maybe, this world just shouldn't have me

no more...

(psst, my 299th post -_-)

i tried to write a will, saw that it's blank, worthless life...

I think...

...

it's the third day of no military stuffs.

could have been better. i do not know.

just seems to be, worse off?

but nevertheless, yes, i have become an ORDinary person.

or soon, as the words goes on, it's nearing.

has been staying indoors when the sun's up.

out when the moon's up.

and sleep when the sun's awake.

it's unhealthy. but. i do not choose.

just a few days more to go.

just a few more events to go.

i just hope things could be more simpler.

...

... i need to re-position myself

... i need to think more

... i need to clear my thoughts

... i need to be more positive

... i need to improve in my english

... i need to pass English test

... i want a car

... i want to move out

... i want to work

... i want to study

... i want money

... i hate where i am

... i hate who i am

... i love you

simpliest of the simple, back to basics... ... ...

wish, hope and wonder

crazy day today
servicing should not be this messy
clothes full of oil
everybody's oily

then, the hero comes along
unclog the clogged drain
then everything flows down
and everything calms down

and come along a mischievous guy
step into the puddle of black substance
awful stench
and awful experience

nevertheless, the clock struck five thirty
and off we go
preparation for BBQ
very fun and very awkward

thanks to all that put in effort
thanks to all that never
thanks to all that got me involved
thanks to all that forgot

anyway, a very very very good start to today
probably why this post
always never fails to brighten me up
and cheered me along

big smiles shown on everybody's face
'cos it's thursday
tomorrow will be a very tired day
TGIF

good luck to you
sweet dreams to you
good night to you
and only to you

C'est la seule femme qui puisse le calmer...

my teeth can ORD

that's right.
my teeth is fit for ORD
so funny. ain't it?
need to be fit for ORD, like really, fit.

today's exceptional
completed nine km of non stop jogging
the aim
to complete and not to compete

it's just for the preparation for the army half marathon
twenty one km for it, happening some day mid august
well, some people shouted, "oie, ORD lor, run for what?"
smiling back, i continued, attitude is an elegance, hmmmm...

after-all, ignorance is bliss
smiles, cheers and hooray
pre-ord celebration happening soon
many thanks and appreciative

gonna get some presents too
the months are approaching
demanding presents for demanding people
oh well, it's the thoughts that counts... really...

i'm tired
and should you too
good night, sweet dreams
and i hope to say it to you every night

but things are just imperfect...

counting down

it's always about counting down
counting down to your ORD date
counting down to your next travel date
counting down to your "whatever" date

the point?
it's almost like an excuse to do something
counting down to ORD, slack
counting down to traveling, join the sales figures
counting down to dates, go doll up

lots of important dates coming up
forms to be mailed
checkups to pass
notes to note
and tests, exams to prepare

seriously, why must polytechnic graduates
take the QET
it's like so hard, can
starting to hate this institute/campus/graveyard

but oh well
for the value that can be added
i must take it, or leave it, which coincidentally is not an option
so study for it

it's friday
study can wait
relax will come and work soon follow
i'm not moon lighting but just considering

thanks guys for the help
thanks guys for not helping as well
this is gonna be a one man show
this is all so random

this post has no objective
really, very random
but i don't care
and why should you?

ignorance is bliss
elegance is attitude
be blessed with attitude
start living elegantly and ignorantly

so i shall go play my game
just like the good old young me
the youth needs to be maintained
and you're still beautiful

enjoy the weekends!

to realise the value of friends, is to start losing one,
to start losing one, ask me, i've sincerely realised the value of friends
some you can live without
some you definitely must miss and remember

you are the one...

tranquil night life

away from the buzz
clear of the dud-doom-dud
cleanse of ah-ooh-ahhhh
free from all burdens

good morning
sunday's looking worse than saturday
saturdays are stressful, tired and warm
it is always about fulfillment

but everything's quiet now
everything's silent
stress has gone away
but will come back anyway

so let me enjoy this moment
surfing around
typing away
just let me be

sometimes you would really enjoy this
just u, yourself and whoever is in your mind
you don't need the waves, too drama
you don't need the shoooosh, too shoooosh

it's like jogging and listening to your favourite tune
just the tempo you need, just the pace you like
just the shoes you fit, just the exertness you prefer
just the speed of you, just the thoughts of you

GSS started, what are you waiting for?
if not now, then when?
even 2nd hand goods looks damn good
even stress needs to shun away

so good luck, have fun
all be well
all be good
all be sleeping safe and sound

love you

don't read me, there is no other meaning...

stop second guessing

my ass.
no i am not in a bad mood.
it's just that i am beginning to realise what is paranoia
quite big a word, you know what that means, don't suspect

just back from this "Life Beyond Army" kinda thing
telling us how singapore has shaped up when we're cooped up
oh well, basically telling us which industry to slog your life for
and how, to successfully be one of the many

nothing much to look forward
except the biggest day of the year, this year
been waiting and waiting and waiting
some of you are already past it, ORD lor...

can't really do much
tired after hours of PSP-gaming
abit dumb, but it's fun
so don't cast me out

oh well, hungry liao
dinner's serving
donuts coming
and i am waiting

best wishes :)

i don't want a PS3, i want a Mazda 3...

labour day

was yesterday.
a terribly horrifying start to the month.
totally cannot describe it in words, but tears only.
today's a nightmare.

thought for much to type
but i'll just leave it in my head
read happy things
and feeling better already

the world is turning
everyone's moving around
doing things, creating things
making things happen

but i am just here
doing nothing
thinking of nothing
feeling so empty

i guess i have an ego but what backs that ego?
i guess i claim i read but what have i read?
i guess i feel empty but what have i done to fill it up?
i guess i make things happen but what have i done to prevent the stupid and bad things from happening?

yeah, so just face it
money don't drop from the sky
or it just did?
Govt. just did?

well, sadly, it's gone
woosh just like that
BHG got sales, new movies are out
games are out, see? the world's moving

but i'm not, the money's still in
hate crowdy sales,
seeking alternatives to movies and games
i'm stagnant, im-potent, resist changes, and please pardon my tactlessly crudeness

good off day to those on off
take care, rest well for those on MC
happy days ahead for those whom enjoyed their previous
top grades for those in studies

:)

don't quote me, don't bring up my past, 'cos i hate them all...

TGIF

just back from the outside world.
weather is warm, i'd say.
ever really take a good look at people.
sort of developing agoraphobia.

well, spent a really good time at the library
pondering when was my last visit there
didn't really matter
grab a couple of books, but borrowed only one.

yes, i'm a reader.
i read.
all sorts of things.
but i don't think.

later will be off to some glass house
to attend some dinner
hosted by people i know
hope it all turns out the way it should

good luck! :D

anyway, i better be off for some slumber.
i'll probably won't get through the young night.
i hope you're doing well.
best wishes from me to you.

a penny saved is a penny earned...

hello world

really. Hello.
back from taiwan.
missed alot of things here.
missed you and you and you.

cannot get used to the weather already.
it is bothering me for days.
been sweating even if i am sitting down waiting for bus.
and that is not cool.

and the moment i go back to work the first day.
i thought of going back there till i ORD.
i thought of being there.
i thought of emigration, with you and everything i love.

never mind.

and what the hell
come back only to see that JI guy still not caught
instead
they announced how he exploits toilet windows

clap clap for the talent.
wonderful job.
i might just escape from the green clutches
through the windows too

and not forgetting the guns
walk around cineleisure
bleahx

i'm rather tired of everything green already
or vomit colour, argh
lucky for me, it's ending
too bad for those that just entered.

but hey, i've been through that phase too.
yup.

happy to know everyone's doing better than me.
glad to know things are better without me around.
hope to see things that way, while i am still not around.
'cause i'll just be quietly wishing all of you guys out there.

good luck and best wishes.

a slave of love, i want to be...

a satisfactory experience

it did not rain today. (missed you and the rain)
don't know if it's on purpose.
sun brightly in the evening sky
the parade was a job well done
(so said the management)

not bad
training was put to test
think we passed
with mistakes here and there

but pulled it off
thank you all
thank you you
three cheers for you


read the papers about the strange cab rule in CBD
funny thing is some hotel of name with numbers in chinatown
complained about the inconvenience caused
because the only taxi stand is opposite, accessible by crossing a overhead bridge

why cannot just cross
their customers no strength after one night's activity meh
or cannot let people know
or... ahem ahem

nevertheless i also think it's pretty funny
yes it might reduce traffic accidents
but when it causes inconvenience to us, funny
inconveniences saves lives?

it's "rainbow", what "ram-bo" "ram-bo" ... tsk...

everyone deserves a chance

its been raining.
a decent twenty two degrees celsius.

i am standing in the rain for the past 3 days or so.
i tell you, even if you cry, no one will know.
i'm standing out there,
full ears for the commands in malayu.

a parade to send off one officer.
a parade to welcome another officer.
to me, ORD
to them, how many days off ar?

then someone has to crack it.
"eh, raining leh, wonder how MSK is doing?"
concern eh?
limping somemore leh, quite an individualistic figure

now no shelter, nothing
why not get caught,
then have food, water, shelter and sleep
good right?

bleahx.

running away, just far enough...

free. normal. simple.

raining. cooling. chilling.
sitting. typing. thinking.

events, i hate, happened.
events, i hoped, happened.

replies, i have recieved.
replies, i have hoped.

i had to let you go.
i had to let you free.

i can't do a thing, helpless.
i was feeling lonely, useless.

i understand, i had to.
i figured it was the kind of release you need.

i just need to know, really. honestly.

i heard those things you said,
i don't really them.

i wondered about those things you didn't,
i wondered, a punishment? or plain sympathy?

i just did what i had to.
i had to let go.

i wished i never had such thoughts.
i didn't dare.

i can't go on.
i realised this is just me, "i".

i don't need any of this.
i just need to know.

...

you'll never walk alone. me... you... let's just, walk together...

number 1 in your heart, hopefully

raining.
waited for 2 1/2 , maybe 3 hours.

the rain came. the rain passed.
the sun came. the sun passed.
i sat in the car.
i am outside the car.

basically, that's my day.

i stood and sat across you.
you didn't know, of course.
my ipod shuffle was singing.
tunes only me will know.

i sat there. waited.
looking at the dazzling rain.

i love the rain, don't you?

what happened

good morning to you and you.
just reached home. bathed. and clean.

Happy early early Birthday Han!

yawn. getting sleepy.
took a look around.
nothing. absolutely no beings around.
ghost house.
no parents. no siblings.
only the fan, revolving, ignoring me.
i forgot my existence.

lonliness overwhelmed me.
i'm confused.

but she's probably asleep.
didn't want to send her a message, no more.
knowing there will be no reply.
every action yield no result.
but consequence, only.

where is my helmet?

i hope, and i hope to see her point of view, as well as my own...

make it count

raining. just back from camp.

today had a good sleep during work.
had a sleeping session while waiting to clear my checkup for my driving course later next week.
my queue number was 0084. fell asleep when it was 0060.
woke up, much to my surpise, 2 hours passed. the number. 0072.
so much for being a swift and decisive force.

nevertheless, i cleared the checkup. certified fit.
one more license to the list.
not that i have any. on the list.

oh ya oh ya.
i'm supposed to be in the car to work at 0700.
but i woke up at 0650.
i'm so sorry, guys.

woke up only to find my nokia facing me with a half finished sms.
didn't set the alarm.
didn't send the sms.
argh.

oh well.

wondering...
why things just ain't falling into place...
why things just ain't happening at the right time...
why do people still think they are fat, when told upteen times, they look fabulous...

why ar why?

after ORD,
i'm hoping to wake up,
think through the things that i want to do today...
and ask, "would i have done differently, if today is my last?"...

cherish you. cherish me. cherish him. cherish her.

make it count. make everyday count.

2008

happy new year. world.
it's raining. but sunshine before.

basically, am free.
kinda "missing" from here. my apologies.
new year. new year.
the ang mo's new year. had fun. joy. and laughter.
also a bit of frustrations.

resolutions.
money.
wheels.
sleep.
inspirations.
ORD.
pillow.
electronic devices.

:)

miss my pink ic.
miss you more.

i will be waiting. i will be here.