MacDonald has a way around gamers, too

just something before christmas

(listening to: 梁文音 - 三个愿望)



and maybe something on christmas or after christmas
and hope that santa may be so kind as to provide me with three wishes
so that i can pass it on
it's always good to share the love a.k.a sharing is caring
so if you want good mandarin voices this christmas, she may be suitable
for other occasions
i don't know
perhaps, and just perhaps
joeeeeeyyyyyy?
canto?
rayyymonnnddddd?

and the rain keeps falling
big, then small, then big again, then small again
with sunshine, without sunshine, with clouds, without clouds
clear blue sky also can rain, wonderful weather isn't it?

my life is an empty sheet
tabula rasa
it seems blank
with no stories, no labels or titles to identify it

i cannot tell someone how my life has been
as if i haven't lived any
but i'm fine with the way it is
i'm not happy, i'm just empty

but that's okay
i still have goals in life
and love being random
just randomly typing what i can ever think of

no specifics
no details
no strings attached
just thoughts
super random thoughts
perhaps that's not what the internet blog spaces desires
but here it is

just a little bit of me

i'm not allowed to be disappointed
because not one hundred percent effort has been put in
but effort i admit, i had put in
and results ain't that bad, but not satisfying either

when you look below you
you feel better
because you see people worse than you

when you look above
you feel inferior
people are up there above you
pushing their way upwards
and making you feel smaller

and one must do something about it

like i am feeling cold just in my grey army vest and black shorts
with the gentle drizzle just right outside
the fan spinning at number three
i pull the blanket towards me
and that's all the effort i put in
others may walk to the kitchen, a cup of hot tea, then cuddle in the blanket
and if that's one hundred percent, i'm far far away

that's how i feel...

(i did make the effort)

(i'm not afraid of challenges)

(i'm afraid of failures)

it may sound girly
it may sound gay
it may sound like the estrogens taking over
but really, that's how it really is

isn't it?

and i'm drowning myself inside these shows
no offence
but i really prefer
海派甜心

life of a student
and i want everything to change
for the better of course
and perhaps also my two front teeth, santa

please...

good luck to all of you out there
business boomz!
study boomz!
life boomz!

:)

it's cold

it is the month of low temperature
just hoping and praying
that the weather just stays cool
not wet, hate the rain nowadays

exams are over
and one semester is over as well
that means six weeks of holidays
six weeks is short
after some canto and taiwan fever, and hopefully pick up a skill (one is good, i know myself)
and then it's school again

seems like a vicious cycle
but i'm one semester nearer to graduation
and there are some who are one semester away from graduation
and they are really worried about how is it going to be after graduation

i don't know
i just want to graduate smoothly
no need to be like elite (i know myself)
just make it through smoothly

i don't know how the future looks like
future here is define as after graduation
but i do see the happenings for a couple of months

it's going to be colder
for the place i'm going to be in
my wallet's going to thinner
by alot, but it's all worth it

it's all the "i" in this post
so i should make some space for people that i know
all the best!
to me, to you, and to everyone

good luck for those waiting for results

:)

take a look! it's HIM with specs!
if you can even identify him in the first place...
still handsome not?


:P

happiness is not a possession to be prized, it is a quality of thought, a state of mind...

from an email...
Breathing Therapy

The nose has a left and a right side; we use both to inhale and exhale.

Actually they are different; you would be able to feel the difference.
The right side represents the sun, left side represents the moon.
During a headache, try to close your right nose and use your left nose to breathe.

In about 5 mins, your headache will go .

If you feel tired, just reverse, close your left nose and breathe through your right nose.
After a while, you will feel your mind is refreshed.

Right side belongs to 'hot', so it gets heated up easily, left side belongs to 'cold'.

Most females breathe with their left noses, so they get "cooled off" faster.

Most of the guys breathe with their right noses, they get worked up.

Do you notice the moment we wake up, which side breathes faster? Left or right? ?

If left is faster, you will feel tired.
So, close your left nose and use your right nose for breathing, you will get refreshed quickly.

This can be taught to kids, but it is more effective when practiced by adults.

My friend used to have bad headaches and was always visiting the doctor..

There was this period when he suffered headache literally every night, unable to study.

He took painkillers, did not work.

He decided to try out the breathing therapy here: closed his right nose and breathed through his left nose.

In less than a week, his headaches were gone! He continued the exercise for one month.

This alternative natural therapy without medication is something that he has experienced.

So, why not give it a try?

take your shoulders down from your ears...

huh?

relax...

it was hard to do...

but i was willing to...

-incomplete-

it was gloomy with a drizzling rain...

a couple of days back then actually

riding along singapore road in such weather can be

quite a hazard

the evil sky and it merciless tears

there was enough light

however

in that weather

to see things clearly around me

but that was not the point

it is this weather that made me ponder

about academic stuffs

the timetable i've made

and the modules i've bidded for

yes, you bid modules in NUS

using the points bidding system

you know, like COE

quota, no. of bidders, every one pays the lowest successful bid

timetable for the upcoming semester ain't pleasant

school is an everyday thing

which for the past two semesters, is an uncommon thing

and modules i've bidded for

would require tons of self motivation

more than 44 hours of self preparation for the modules

oh yes

i'm a full time student afterall

but anything would have its balance

its ying and its yang, its black and its white

optimistically, everyday is just 3 to 5 hours of school

and it somehow fits nicely into life's routines

then again

maybe the whole idea is not good afterall

and just as perfect as the weather

gloomy

and i've got another huge worry on my mind

one that would cause this weather to turn into

a sudden fury of thunderstorms

so hard it crashes hearts

and it is almost forbidden to voice my views out...

it's just another wednesday...

but it poured rain

on my side

i don't know about yours

but it rained over here

and so

the rain fall downs on my window

i see the droplets roll down

and coldness runs through me

the eclipse today

was nothing really special

over at my side

i don't know about yours

was really eager in the morning, really

switched it on

and those chinese hosts were great

great at helping me fall asleep

yes, i missed the eclipse

slept it away

argh, kinda waste

was informed this is the longest eclipse

lasting like maybe a lucky 6 minutes?

best viewed at some of the big cities of china

and precisely

why the tv show is in 100% mandarin

oh well

and went to stomp

someone went to foshan and came back

with those really nice pictures

what a day...

and there

it's just another wednesday

this post is because it rained

on my side that is

don't know about yours

take care.

:)

it's a sunny day... with rain...

it's strange, the weather these days

sunshine with rain

rain with sunshine

so singapore. not taipei.

carry out my morning routine

then lie on my bed for some winks at maybe 8.30am

had two strange nightmares in a row

and i wake up, only to find the alarm clock shows 9.30am

how can one normal person

have two nightmares

in a matter of an hour?

scary and i fear i am not normal anymore

and i don't remember any of them

that's the good thing :)

just up and feeling scared

really sweaty too

oh well, life goes on

and i hope i won't be a loser

cos' i'm starting to feel like one

again

you know, those depressed feelings

of not having any worth

of not doing enough

of not achieving enough

perhaps school can help

or make it worse

i kinda want to go back taipei

once i step foot on Singapore Changi Airport

i know i need to go back

haha, i don't like it here

perhaps, just avoiding

but i do really want to be somewhere else

just like sis

an entire month in Nihon-koku

envy... really envy...

and parents going off too

leaving me the four walls

but i still have my girl

to warm things up a little

:)

make someone happy today, for you

make you happy everyday, for me

it's a rainy day... again

love rainy days

really do

cool and chilly

makes bed activities more encouraging, motivating and exhausting

and enjoying every bit of it

chill people

enjoy the rain

while i still can

...

rainy mid-week

rain rain go away

come again another day

if not rain till i need to fetch my dear can?

if not ar... ride motorbike wet wet and dangerous leh...

holidays coming to an end - for me

but for those coming back from infected countries

probably another seven days of holiday

good or not? i don't know

see whether the student garang or not lah...

but being kids

probably yes :)

who wouldn't want extended breaks?

after being taken off school for 4 weeks

sure have problem going back to school one

like me, after ns 2 years, zzz to school books already

but still able to cope

able to graduate i hope

shouldn't be a problem

unless something wicked happen

oh well

nothing much on the news

and pretty much the same old boring stomps

time to nap

don't want to waste the perfect weather

chilll~

go confidently in the direction of your dreams

live the life you have imagined

but i do not have what it takes...

This drama is currently airing...

It's "The King of Snooker"

picture from Dramawiki.

All i need to know is that it is a drama serial comprising of 20 episodes surrounding the theme of snooker. I don't really watch hong kong drama serials that extensively but i guess this is one of the few that i will complete it.

Only completed 7 episodes and still not falling asleep. Yes, i'm going to admit i sleep when watching drama. But this is keeping me awake. perhaps it's the snooker actions involved in the show. And quite a number of philosophical issues being touched on. Overall, quite a predictable show with a pace that is to my comfort. More comments after i watch on, if i don't sleep or stop halfway.

Sypnosis (Dramawiki)

The all-conquering snooker player Yau Yat Kiu (Adam Cheng) takes everyone by surprise when he suddenly retires from the snooker world. This comes as a huge disappointed to her daughter Yau Ka Kan (Niki Chow), who has always wanted to follow in his footsteps. She feels bewildered too, for although Kiu pretends he does not care about the snooker any more, he has set up an extremely difficult game in his restaurant. His purpose cannot be more obvious: he is waiting for someone to solve the game. Kiu comes to know Kan Tze Him (Patrick Tang) by chance. Noticing his flair for the snooker, Kiu decides to make an exception for Him and teaches him all he knows about the game. Later, Kan manages to persuade her father into taking her in as well.

Him fancies Kan, but she is fond of Lui Kin Chung (Derek Kwok), Kiu's bitter foe. Chung is a crafty person. In order to win the game, he fools around with Him's aunt Chin To To (Joyce Tang), who is also Him's manager. Him falls out with Kiu because of Chung. Both master and disciple come to settle their scores on a snooker-table in the end.

yawn

Charlene Choi - 二缺一

nice song to end my day, today :)

it's like life's a fairy tale, no more.

it's like noone's a prince, nor a princess anymore.

everyone is just everyone.

it's always nice to read and know

that people are doing well and doing fine

and that people are actually living each day

doing the best they can

it really feels good to know

that everyone's okay

although it maybe just superficial

but yeah, at least it's something, to begin with

then perhaps i should be okay too.

sadly, unfortunately, as always, i am not.

but won't get to that.

just leave it as that.

anyways, the vicious cycle continues

learning phase has ended

and exams are coming!

time for the mugging period

time to realise the honours dream

before i really start to feel so worthless

so helpless in what i can only do now

or really? is that all i can do?

people are facing pressures from everywhere, everyday

how do they deal with it?

how do they actually deal with the craziness stress always provide?

how do they deal with the anxiety, the sweaty palms, the constant pressure?

perhaps i can do read-ups on that

and share with people

but then, it's the worthless, useless me

me? advising people to cope with stress? bullshit.

oh well.

i'm crazy.

i should just go jump.

and not harm people.

:)

tata.

personal emotion disorder is not a crime...

let's try harder

shall we?

listening to Jolin Tsai's butterfly album

at this time of the day

something wrong right?

but then, what to do when you just came out from the shower?

i can't really get myself to continue my 5 pages essay, so yeah...

on hindsight, i think April is hell month for me

i also don't know why

but it just appears so

exams and tests and perhaps, more upsets and scoldings along the way

i guess that's just how life is, for me at least

:)

philosophical stuffs are always needed to motivate oneself into doing something. what "aim for the star, even if you fail, you will still hit the sky." and "begin with the end in mind." and "to prepare is to succeed" oh yes oh yes, my favourite, "the only way to win is to cheat" and the little desk calendar that says for the month of march "if you focus results, you will never change. if you focus on change, you will get results."

often i go "woooo" how true. but really. how often do these little phrases really work their way into lives. not for me for sure. i always end up nowhere near i want to be.

i want my first class hons! (in economics) although i suck in math and english. but that's okay. i have my cheat sheets.

i want my picanto! although i don't know where this thought came from, i just thought picanto might be the best deal in the market at current times.

but really, can it satisfy anyone? that gets "high" with speed. that needs the adrenaline rush everytime he/she enters PIE, KPE, TPE, SLE, BKE, CTE, ECP or AYE ?

i'm really a very very very internationally reowned bad driver. i get honked at everywhere my drive goes. but i don't honk people. good right?

oh well.

time for dreams.

and that's what makes humans noble.

人因梦想而伟大

dream of my perfect life.

even if i don't hit any stars,

it's still my sky where i land

:)

let's just take a quick peek at "heavenly" month, so hell doesn't seem so bad...

It's a slip

but not a fall

sixteenth president of the US, President Abraham Lincolm once said

well, after losing a senate voting i think

and i find it rather inspirational, really

presidents often have the most inspirational phrases

they are the public faces

they must know what to say

how to say and how to face the consequences

i guess they have vision

they see the world

while i am coping to see my world

how is my world?

they often say coping with difficult situations

is not as hard as coping with difficult people

may i dare ask

am i difficult?

is it hard to cope with me?

do i give problems to people?

do i make difficult situations?

how do i check myself?

do i provide none but trouble?

do i offer not solutions but questions?

do i complicate things?

do i do i do i?

look into the mirror

and i ask the mirror

then again, human lives in self denial

am i willing to accept criticism?

if i can't cope with myself

how can i expect people to cope with me

i guess i'm just being difficult

to myself

i don't like negativity

i hate consequences

i don't know how to say

and what to say

so i am sorry

2009 mascot: ANTs

you know why?

'cos they gather food all year through

and i wanna be like them

small in everyone's life, almost non-existent, easy to kill, but the most hardworking

work hard.

period.

spare the rod and spoil the child

to love is to discipline him appropriately

guess i have sooo much love from parents

i doubt i have the capacity for it

thank you dad.

went for lunch awhile ago

wondering what to eat

always eat yong tau foo

cannot right? but i can

then see the boneless chicken rice stall queue so long

wah must be damn nice

let's try try

piang, faints

want roasted chicken, no have

want lemon chicken, no have

in the end

char siew rice at a chicken rice stall

what sort of business is this

can i blame for the many many people ahead of me buying everything up?

or just blame myself for bad judgement

'cos i always have

haha

too bad 

so sorry

singaporeans just like to complain

oh well

i was flipping through

this blog

http://blogs.mediacorpradio.sg/bukohmary/

so good

can cover japan

can cover australia

abit sponsored by printer brand somemore

droooooollsssss

japan lehhhh

australia leh

hai~~~ why i in singapore

never mind

work hard

get out of here

'cos fish still thinks singapore is too small

work hard!

change your goal of 2009, from making money to making a difference...