a little space i call my own

and you just don't understand, do you?

sounds familiar eh? maybe not to you. but to me, definitely. i've been hearing this from several people and yes, at different occassions, and it just occur to me, what is it that i simply don't understand? you tell me, now.

the weather's a killer. my brain hurts, my stomach aches and i feel ton of a shit head. just turn and look out of your window. there's plenty of sunlight. unhealthy. they kills. they suck the water out of your body, which you need. and no. i'm not going out to face the sun.

but there's many people out there. i could be the lucky one being sheltered from the sun. but who cares. i need to go out and complete my stuffs.

that's the negative side of my life. the positive? i am able to give myself some time to type here while the world is rotating.

i've been keeping things to myself at a very extreme level. i don't tell things to anyone now. and it kinda hurts my emotional ability. it really does. so if i don't tell anyone, i just type it out here?

words ain't gonna describe what my thoughts are. words describe what my actions are, and my actions will be.

emotionally? how do you feel emotionally? empty? filled with love and things liddat? awwww~ man.. if i go on like this, i'll never achieved what i want. so yeah, i guess i have to skip all this phases.

when you're feeling like one of a shit head, you'd love to play some games and let it out. recalling, i do have fun times. it's not about who wins or who loses. it's about how much you've let out.

of course, winning will be a factor of how much you've let out.

do you understand me ?

really.

buaiz.

rather awkward, it really needs two hands to clap...