feeling sleepy eh, fish
right. that must have been the impression i gave to one and all. "arhh, fish is very tired", "hmm, what did you do yesterday night?" *grins*, "you've changed.". and often i thought to myself. really? is that really so? do i look like i've lost a great deal of concentration and focus...
no. i don't think so.
don't want to be class representative
like what for? more responsibilities. more work to be done. yes. those things are simple to be done. maybe i should not even complain about them. just complete them and simply throw those thoughts away. anyway, twelve weeks or so. a little hassle. and some seal points reflecting i took up a leading role. not too bad viewing from this side.
no. i don't think so.
loads of notes, print them fish
yup. having fun infront of the school lab's monitor. clicking away. playing games? no. the administrators are wrong this time. there's just so many lectures notes and tutorials and lab session notes waiting to be printed. only two subjects are being compiled into booklets. the others? we have to bring our own stack of paper, plain white A4 paper and print ourselves. alright. we can print what we want. and pay less. more work. less money flows out. not too bad viewing from this point.
no. i don't think so.
cheer her up, fish
one of my worst field of study in life. can't seem to cheer people up when they are expecting me to do so. haha. worse still, make them feeling worse off. keep quiet to avoid such situation? no. bad decision. so just try. even if i fail, i tried. didn't i? at least i wouldn't feel so bad. or maybe i should just keep quiet, just leave them alone.
no. i don't think so.
need to relieve stress, fish
come to think of it. there's many things to think about. just that whether this eighteen year old boy should face them. right. saw the number in alphabets? it's eighteen. 18. one eight. 1 and 8. shouldn't be running away from facts now. facts remain as facts. responsibilities shouldn't be escaped. at least i believe in, trying your best. even if you fail, you tried your best. won't feel that bad. do something wrong, do something which you think is not wise, face the consequences. dare to face. but! i don't want to face it yet. i'm young. my age haven't touch the twenty. i shouldn't be facing all these.
no. i don't think so.
yawnz.
tired.
take care my beautiful one and all those people out there.
the weather is warm,
the haze is crawling back.
don't just drive home safely,
drive home road safety.
it's not my fault, it's the blood flowing within me...
Monday, June 28, 2004
peace with happiness
unusual of me. to create a new post before i bathe. but who really cares? as long as this post is up. haha. not a major difference, just yet.
fatigue has pulled up its socks. catching up with me. haha. felt it on the bus trip home today. been some time since i fell aslp. and missed the stop where i am suppose to alight. took all the way till i suddenly jumped up. yup. gotta take the bus back. yawnz.
my life consists of a fantastic girl, my studies ( not paying much attention though ), my brilliant friends that makes school seems so pleasant, my parents that never forget about me and a lack of cash inflow. not really worried about the cash inflow thingy. it's gonna last me through.
had a nice dinner. full. although i don't really have the appetite. don't know what happen. just no. appetite. don't feel like eating.
alright. enough.
Ocean. Ou De Yang have nice melodies. at least i thought so.
take care peeps!
buaiz.
more than half a globe is lonely... i'm in the other...
unusual of me. to create a new post before i bathe. but who really cares? as long as this post is up. haha. not a major difference, just yet.
fatigue has pulled up its socks. catching up with me. haha. felt it on the bus trip home today. been some time since i fell aslp. and missed the stop where i am suppose to alight. took all the way till i suddenly jumped up. yup. gotta take the bus back. yawnz.
my life consists of a fantastic girl, my studies ( not paying much attention though ), my brilliant friends that makes school seems so pleasant, my parents that never forget about me and a lack of cash inflow. not really worried about the cash inflow thingy. it's gonna last me through.
had a nice dinner. full. although i don't really have the appetite. don't know what happen. just no. appetite. don't feel like eating.
alright. enough.
Ocean. Ou De Yang have nice melodies. at least i thought so.
take care peeps!
buaiz.
more than half a globe is lonely... i'm in the other...
Friday, June 25, 2004
longing for the more mature me
today was suggested as sucky with a fantastic ending.
just came out from the place. feeling refreshed. hope this will last me till 4am or so. the clash is on. haha.
how's school?
a couple of hours of lecture and went for this Effective Living class. the teacher seems to be one with incredible IQ. he talks as if he knows alot. when coming to me, i suggested i like music. he goes "sorry, i know nuts about music." right...
lecture seems boring enough. i slept through one of it. and struggle with sms-ing through the other. haha. conflict management is nothing. Laws of the IT industry is very similar to what i have been through. so i guess i could cope. no worries.
no appetite.
i'm getting rather used to late nights. early wakes. things are getting better. haha. more in shaped.
like da polo teeeeee. thanks very much. haha. love ya.
match starting in abt 15 minutes? whatever is the result. let's hope it isn't a boring game. ole!
you're fine. i'm alright.
take care people!
missing you...
don't want to be childish, no more.
today was suggested as sucky with a fantastic ending.
just came out from the place. feeling refreshed. hope this will last me till 4am or so. the clash is on. haha.
how's school?
a couple of hours of lecture and went for this Effective Living class. the teacher seems to be one with incredible IQ. he talks as if he knows alot. when coming to me, i suggested i like music. he goes "sorry, i know nuts about music." right...
lecture seems boring enough. i slept through one of it. and struggle with sms-ing through the other. haha. conflict management is nothing. Laws of the IT industry is very similar to what i have been through. so i guess i could cope. no worries.
no appetite.
i'm getting rather used to late nights. early wakes. things are getting better. haha. more in shaped.
like da polo teeeeee. thanks very much. haha. love ya.
match starting in abt 15 minutes? whatever is the result. let's hope it isn't a boring game. ole!
you're fine. i'm alright.
take care people!
missing you...
don't want to be childish, no more.
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
love could be one click away
saw it somewhere. don't know where. just somewhere. don't ask me to tell you where. because i don't know where. since i don't know where. don't bother to ask me where. ask me where. i won't be able to tell you where. don't force me to tell you where, because i don't like people to ask me what i post. i don't know where.
i'm in that sort of mood today. at least i felt this way. might not show it out. might show it out. depends on your luck.
i have an attitude. a serious case too. people like. people don't like. an attitude which i won't prefer. but i have this attitude. i know alot of people don't like. i've been trying to change. and i hope i can.
my attitude towards all things is going to change.
i think i say that alot of times. did i? didn't i?
this is one online space. which all the frustration goes in, very much often. a space i use to bully. a space where everything i wanna scream goes in. a space where, where, where, i just might scream infront of the monitor and type all the shit i feel like typing in.
so so so sorry.
apologetic.
don't worry.
i still love you.
take care peeps!
as it goes.
i'm sorry i can't be perfect. but hell yes, i'll try to be...
saw it somewhere. don't know where. just somewhere. don't ask me to tell you where. because i don't know where. since i don't know where. don't bother to ask me where. ask me where. i won't be able to tell you where. don't force me to tell you where, because i don't like people to ask me what i post. i don't know where.
i'm in that sort of mood today. at least i felt this way. might not show it out. might show it out. depends on your luck.
i have an attitude. a serious case too. people like. people don't like. an attitude which i won't prefer. but i have this attitude. i know alot of people don't like. i've been trying to change. and i hope i can.
my attitude towards all things is going to change.
i think i say that alot of times. did i? didn't i?
this is one online space. which all the frustration goes in, very much often. a space i use to bully. a space where everything i wanna scream goes in. a space where, where, where, i just might scream infront of the monitor and type all the shit i feel like typing in.
so so so sorry.
apologetic.
don't worry.
i still love you.
take care peeps!
as it goes.
i'm sorry i can't be perfect. but hell yes, i'll try to be...
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
take me to your heart, vice versa
for some reason, i am blogging today. haha. actually. planning to do it tomorrow. but today's fine too. blog tomorrow also the same ya? just finish bathing though.
first day of school. one week earlier than the rest of my friends. way too complex a feeling. think it's long time never concentrate or something. wasn't really into the studying thing so far. just want to relax. maybe just relaxingly study. haha.
just don't feel like studying.
school's overall fine. the subjects seem tough to handle. or maybe not. then i think i need to change one subject of mine. thinking about it all day. not really sure wanna not?... school nothing much also. how happening can it be? print notes. go lecture. late. if not, not late. see see friends. catch up alittle. though didn't get to taste the food, but i'm not missing it too.
don't know. just felt weird. haha.
saw most of my class people. not too bad. not too good either. my classes are not always good. yup.
never know. school can be so boring. haha.
watched The day after tomorrow. last minute caught it. really nice show. those visual effects accompanied with the sounds too. guess it's worthwhile.
hope you enjoyed it too. really hope.
though, it wasn't really convincing.
haha.
i'm tired. mentally. not physically. but soon. not getting sleep these days. not planning to get sleep too. i must bear with it. haha. nono. get used to it. yup. no sleep only. showing a brave front.
need sleep? don't need sleep? haha.
fingers off typing mode.
take care...
my 189th post...
for some reason, i am blogging today. haha. actually. planning to do it tomorrow. but today's fine too. blog tomorrow also the same ya? just finish bathing though.
first day of school. one week earlier than the rest of my friends. way too complex a feeling. think it's long time never concentrate or something. wasn't really into the studying thing so far. just want to relax. maybe just relaxingly study. haha.
just don't feel like studying.
school's overall fine. the subjects seem tough to handle. or maybe not. then i think i need to change one subject of mine. thinking about it all day. not really sure wanna not?... school nothing much also. how happening can it be? print notes. go lecture. late. if not, not late. see see friends. catch up alittle. though didn't get to taste the food, but i'm not missing it too.
don't know. just felt weird. haha.
saw most of my class people. not too bad. not too good either. my classes are not always good. yup.
never know. school can be so boring. haha.
watched The day after tomorrow. last minute caught it. really nice show. those visual effects accompanied with the sounds too. guess it's worthwhile.
hope you enjoyed it too. really hope.
though, it wasn't really convincing.
haha.
i'm tired. mentally. not physically. but soon. not getting sleep these days. not planning to get sleep too. i must bear with it. haha. nono. get used to it. yup. no sleep only. showing a brave front.
need sleep? don't need sleep? haha.
fingers off typing mode.
take care...
my 189th post...
Thursday, June 17, 2004
a deep sense of hesitation
it's windy out there. might rain. might not. haha. well, no one can accurately tell the weather. at least i don't see ants scattering around which i was told when that happens, rain will pour. but however the weather might change, the earth still spins. events still take place. and the wind still blows.
as usual. just bathed. haha. very fast one too. hair wet wet. the fan blowing at only speed level one. but the wind coming through is strong too. maybe i'll turn the fan's speed up alittle. they call it more "shiok". equip myself with da ear phones. sentimental hits flowing through.
recollections. not really aware how long i haven't told you about my stuffs. i guess i took a little break from this online space i've registered since august. but now. a new layout. and a new update. haha.
briefly, my status has changed a little. my home has become rather, my hotel as suggested. i'm unemployed, and still awaiting for my pay. (they better pay me, heh). that's basically it if ya don't wanna read on.
i've reached home at maybe 12.30am? i don't really know. haha. lost track of the time nowadays. as long as it's after sunset. don't really pay much attention to the time when it's nightfall. who really cares right? haha. okay. maybe those that are eager to get off work or just trying to catch the last bus home and situations like that. i think i reached home at 12.30am for the sake of it. haha.
resigned my job. need rest. haha. can't work always. since school is starting, other things and people have to be taken into consideration too. hopefully the pay will last. if not, must work weekends? or something similar. if ya know what i mean.
hidden meanings within sentences and words. not bad eh?
didn't know i can be such an irritant and annoying one leh. haha. i don't know it myself. but recieved feedbacks on that. haha. i'm going to change. maybe start by saying lesser stuffs. haha.
feelings deep within. abit rocky eh? haha. but it looks wonderful. so... everlasting. serious this time.
no lies. no liars.
trust me.
i'm going to write off portugal's and england's chance for the euro2004.
going to Johor Bahruuuuuuuuu.
take care peeps!
thanks for the Tic Tac Orange =P
no sweet stuffs. plainly, i love you...
it's windy out there. might rain. might not. haha. well, no one can accurately tell the weather. at least i don't see ants scattering around which i was told when that happens, rain will pour. but however the weather might change, the earth still spins. events still take place. and the wind still blows.
as usual. just bathed. haha. very fast one too. hair wet wet. the fan blowing at only speed level one. but the wind coming through is strong too. maybe i'll turn the fan's speed up alittle. they call it more "shiok". equip myself with da ear phones. sentimental hits flowing through.
recollections. not really aware how long i haven't told you about my stuffs. i guess i took a little break from this online space i've registered since august. but now. a new layout. and a new update. haha.
briefly, my status has changed a little. my home has become rather, my hotel as suggested. i'm unemployed, and still awaiting for my pay. (they better pay me, heh). that's basically it if ya don't wanna read on.
i've reached home at maybe 12.30am? i don't really know. haha. lost track of the time nowadays. as long as it's after sunset. don't really pay much attention to the time when it's nightfall. who really cares right? haha. okay. maybe those that are eager to get off work or just trying to catch the last bus home and situations like that. i think i reached home at 12.30am for the sake of it. haha.
resigned my job. need rest. haha. can't work always. since school is starting, other things and people have to be taken into consideration too. hopefully the pay will last. if not, must work weekends? or something similar. if ya know what i mean.
hidden meanings within sentences and words. not bad eh?
didn't know i can be such an irritant and annoying one leh. haha. i don't know it myself. but recieved feedbacks on that. haha. i'm going to change. maybe start by saying lesser stuffs. haha.
feelings deep within. abit rocky eh? haha. but it looks wonderful. so... everlasting. serious this time.
no lies. no liars.
trust me.
i'm going to write off portugal's and england's chance for the euro2004.
going to Johor Bahruuuuuuuuu.
take care peeps!
thanks for the Tic Tac Orange =P
no sweet stuffs. plainly, i love you...
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Friday, June 11, 2004
i love praises
who doesn't? haha. admit it. you don't feel happy after praises? but beware of those meanings behind praises. it could well mean another.
haha. just another post before i sleep. the usuals. everything is quiet around, except for the fan which i think is its days are nearing. getting rather noisy nowadays. just got out of the bathroom, which i hope, after this post. the hair will dries up.
kinda happening since da last blog. apart from the working part. had chalets. the chalet is fantastic. not many turned up. but there was a satisfactory level of participation i must say. it turned out real fine. games were played and many laughter. sleeps being deprived but were replaced by many fun experiences already. nevertheless it was superb. haven't had such a satified chalet in years.
pay turns out to be soooooo little. but there were reasons behind the amount. so i'll jolly well take back my words and hope for a more reasonable pay next pay day.
not many memories within my mind at this very moment. haha. quite tired. and quite occupied too. haha. i'm thinking. yup. i am.
not really able to blog much too. unless you people wanna know my MRT trips as well. haha. must take some time off to catch up with you people already.
supposedly to be a long post. but well, i couldn't go on further. i've written too much on paper. so much so that, there wasn't any to go online already. haha.
come back quick! =(
take care peeps!
i don't know anything about love...
who doesn't? haha. admit it. you don't feel happy after praises? but beware of those meanings behind praises. it could well mean another.
haha. just another post before i sleep. the usuals. everything is quiet around, except for the fan which i think is its days are nearing. getting rather noisy nowadays. just got out of the bathroom, which i hope, after this post. the hair will dries up.
kinda happening since da last blog. apart from the working part. had chalets. the chalet is fantastic. not many turned up. but there was a satisfactory level of participation i must say. it turned out real fine. games were played and many laughter. sleeps being deprived but were replaced by many fun experiences already. nevertheless it was superb. haven't had such a satified chalet in years.
pay turns out to be soooooo little. but there were reasons behind the amount. so i'll jolly well take back my words and hope for a more reasonable pay next pay day.
not many memories within my mind at this very moment. haha. quite tired. and quite occupied too. haha. i'm thinking. yup. i am.
not really able to blog much too. unless you people wanna know my MRT trips as well. haha. must take some time off to catch up with you people already.
supposedly to be a long post. but well, i couldn't go on further. i've written too much on paper. so much so that, there wasn't any to go online already. haha.
come back quick! =(
take care peeps!
i don't know anything about love...
Tuesday, June 01, 2004
i need to know
just reached home not long ago. the clock on my 6610 reflects 2.12am as i finished this sentence. just bathe. feeling refreshed. with my favourite cup filled up with just plain water. i am here. typing my way to bed.
yup. today is my off day. if i didn't get it wrong. haha. i will be in serious trouble if i couldn't get the hang of my shifts.
nah. that wouldn't happen to me. i know my shifts well. and today is jolly well my off day.
i meant yesterday, referring to 31st may 2004.
today, 1st june 2004. i am gonna work like 8 hours from now. a full shift.
my off day? hoho.
tio jio by my bestest friends ar. haha. incredible trip yet again. laugh till i couldn't stand up. although i had a really hard time and an incredible headache, listen up. i admit. you guys really can sing a hell of a time. haha. i am just there to cheer things. haha. i can't sing for god's sake.
wasted another off day? hell no. i think i might just have used up and over-use it as well. haha. i love off days. but i do miss working days at times.
and of course. i miss my poly friends.
and of course. i miss my working friends.
[would be bad not to list them all] hiak hiak..
i need to know why. i need to know the reason. but i gotta admit that this time. i couldn't grab hold of things properly. things ain't working out fine now. i need to know the reason. yet jolly well know that you won't be able to tell me one. it's always "haha" , "ic" , "=/" etc etc. i really don't know what to say already. we are just not conversing. you always appear to be very busy at the other side of the cables and modem. i've always waited. it's alright. =)
on the other point...
i'm being kept seriously occupied. i mean not trying to say that time is not enough. i never believe in that time is not enough. time is forever enough. it's how you manage it.
i didn't manage it properly.
you know, i've always hated to plan things in advance. always that belief "things never ever worked out if you plan it in advance" but it seems. that now i should do a little planning in advance. haha. with work, the schedule seems tighter.
school starts on the 21st june.
chalet will be on da 8th june.
everything else better land on my A shift or the C shift and the day after.
hiak hiak hiak.
i better get to bed. getting the feel.
take care peeps!
looking forward...
just reached home not long ago. the clock on my 6610 reflects 2.12am as i finished this sentence. just bathe. feeling refreshed. with my favourite cup filled up with just plain water. i am here. typing my way to bed.
yup. today is my off day. if i didn't get it wrong. haha. i will be in serious trouble if i couldn't get the hang of my shifts.
nah. that wouldn't happen to me. i know my shifts well. and today is jolly well my off day.
i meant yesterday, referring to 31st may 2004.
today, 1st june 2004. i am gonna work like 8 hours from now. a full shift.
my off day? hoho.
tio jio by my bestest friends ar. haha. incredible trip yet again. laugh till i couldn't stand up. although i had a really hard time and an incredible headache, listen up. i admit. you guys really can sing a hell of a time. haha. i am just there to cheer things. haha. i can't sing for god's sake.
wasted another off day? hell no. i think i might just have used up and over-use it as well. haha. i love off days. but i do miss working days at times.
and of course. i miss my poly friends.
and of course. i miss my working friends.
[would be bad not to list them all] hiak hiak..
i need to know why. i need to know the reason. but i gotta admit that this time. i couldn't grab hold of things properly. things ain't working out fine now. i need to know the reason. yet jolly well know that you won't be able to tell me one. it's always "haha" , "ic" , "=/" etc etc. i really don't know what to say already. we are just not conversing. you always appear to be very busy at the other side of the cables and modem. i've always waited. it's alright. =)
on the other point...
i'm being kept seriously occupied. i mean not trying to say that time is not enough. i never believe in that time is not enough. time is forever enough. it's how you manage it.
i didn't manage it properly.
you know, i've always hated to plan things in advance. always that belief "things never ever worked out if you plan it in advance" but it seems. that now i should do a little planning in advance. haha. with work, the schedule seems tighter.
school starts on the 21st june.
chalet will be on da 8th june.
everything else better land on my A shift or the C shift and the day after.
hiak hiak hiak.
i better get to bed. getting the feel.
take care peeps!
looking forward...
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