a little space i call my own

feeling sleepy eh, fish

right. that must have been the impression i gave to one and all. "arhh, fish is very tired", "hmm, what did you do yesterday night?" *grins*, "you've changed.". and often i thought to myself. really? is that really so? do i look like i've lost a great deal of concentration and focus...

no. i don't think so.

don't want to be class representative
like what for? more responsibilities. more work to be done. yes. those things are simple to be done. maybe i should not even complain about them. just complete them and simply throw those thoughts away. anyway, twelve weeks or so. a little hassle. and some seal points reflecting i took up a leading role. not too bad viewing from this side.

no. i don't think so.

loads of notes, print them fish
yup. having fun infront of the school lab's monitor. clicking away. playing games? no. the administrators are wrong this time. there's just so many lectures notes and tutorials and lab session notes waiting to be printed. only two subjects are being compiled into booklets. the others? we have to bring our own stack of paper, plain white A4 paper and print ourselves. alright. we can print what we want. and pay less. more work. less money flows out. not too bad viewing from this point.

no. i don't think so.

cheer her up, fish
one of my worst field of study in life. can't seem to cheer people up when they are expecting me to do so. haha. worse still, make them feeling worse off. keep quiet to avoid such situation? no. bad decision. so just try. even if i fail, i tried. didn't i? at least i wouldn't feel so bad. or maybe i should just keep quiet, just leave them alone.

no. i don't think so.

need to relieve stress, fish
come to think of it. there's many things to think about. just that whether this eighteen year old boy should face them. right. saw the number in alphabets? it's eighteen. 18. one eight. 1 and 8. shouldn't be running away from facts now. facts remain as facts. responsibilities shouldn't be escaped. at least i believe in, trying your best. even if you fail, you tried your best. won't feel that bad. do something wrong, do something which you think is not wise, face the consequences. dare to face. but! i don't want to face it yet. i'm young. my age haven't touch the twenty. i shouldn't be facing all these.

no. i don't think so.

yawnz.

tired.

take care my beautiful one and all those people out there.

the weather is warm,
the haze is crawling back.

don't just drive home safely,
drive home road safety.

it's not my fault, it's the blood flowing within me...