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i'm starting to feel that what some people say about my patience and tolerance is quite true. i'm starting to agree.

they say.

that i have a very high level of patience and tolerance. *tip-toe and point to somewhere higher*

i am beginning to agree.

today, i've thought about it.

people say the most fucking irritating things on earth to me. i can tahan. i can take it. i don't know why. perhaps maybe i'm taurus and apathy.

my mum say me. it doesn't bothers abit.

i wait for people for a whole 3 hours. it's alright with me. i don't feel any hatred or anger towards them.

people can just talk and talk and talk and talk and talk non-stop beside me. i am able to listen attentively. but maybe i don't show it. but i am really listening. and usually, they won't believe. and like all people do. they get angry with me. good gracious. but it's alright with me. i know myself. i don't give them the message that i am listening to them. so they have their rights to be angry with me. but please. try to trust me la. haha.

no wonder people are always angry with me when i keep thinking to myself: "what in this fucking world have i done wrong?"

worse, they will say "you never do anything wrong! it's me lah.. OK?!"

and that makes me pek cek. but i don't blame them. coz i think it's my fault. and i don't blame myself. coz it's their fault too. like that think. nobody's fault. so i happy. haha.

then people think i don't care. and they get more frustrated with me. that's it. i don't wish to continue. you guys, might just find this irritating.

those words filled with pricky effects. needles was with those things you said when i heard it. it pricks my heart. i know. but i don't show it. it seems to go away. that feeling will go away sometime later. it won't bother me abit. i don't show it.

i'm beginning to doubt myself too.

but thinking back about things. i can tahan.

hmm...

i don't know.

just post it here incase i might just not care about myself.

tata~

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