a little space i call my own

faint of heart

warning. this is going to be long and very narrative.

if i'm going to start on the weather, it's going to be rather hard. but if it's the weather at this point of time, it will have to be the reddy sky up there with some breeze that actually carries the smell of rubbish.

what have i done today?

Today's class is scheduled from 10am to 12 noon. that's all. yup. no more lessons for the rest of the day. so what do you do after 12 noon? or rather 11am~ that dumb teacher teaches so fast that the lesson incredibly ends at 11am. so went to library to "nua". it just so happens that i am feeling cooler in there. the weather at that time is extremely irritating. any longer with the sun out there, i might just scream off my top. at anyone at anywhere at any time.

my mood today is definitely lousy.

waited for my buddy aka nan xiong nan di aka "you-know-it-yourself" from 1pm to maybe 1.45pm? look. i am not complaining here. just trying to let it go off. manage to read through the Business Accounting 2 notes 1 time through. at least i did something. it pays off to actually sit alone in the canteen with the unbearable heat and just stare.

had lunch and more waiting to come. went to photocopy things. and soon found our way to Toa Payoh.

TPY. Bustling with life on a friday. and saw this girl running towards us -- me and my buddy -- with arms wide open. like wow~ she wants a hug? like no~ i don't want. she's waiting for her boyfriend. (god~) so, having nothing to do, we naturally accompanied her to wait. also partly interested to see this Mar... of hers.

Am i just surprised to see this guy approximately same height as my buddy coming along? and they held hands. we were stopped when we walked off, there was this short introduction. merely shaking hands and "hi". i think he squeezed my hand. it's been sometime i actually shook hands with someone. but sure enough, this guy is a thumbs up. definitely pass. great smile. great style. just nice. look compatible. just like any other couples on the streeet. and awww, ain't they sweet? their hands never left each other. okay~ except for hugs. or just being seperated by crowds.

bottomline. her boyfriend is friendly. each deserves another. don't even think about them breaking up. it's nonsense. and i am being nonsensical.

we couldn't "tahan" Toa payoh any longer. Let's head odwn to Jurong Point. yup. Jurong point. it's like so, Bonkers III has already started.

the bus ride was a thrill. Except the one from Temasek Polytechnic to Toa Payoh. Saw a lot of greenery. i mean really greenery. the weather turned too. from the sun to the rain. coooling. i chilled off. the mood is getting alot alot alot better.

haha. it's hard to control the bladder. the long bus ride from Toa Payoh to Boon Lay, can kill. TOILET~~~

walked around Jurong Point. it's like wow~ many many many people. i mean MANY. so crowded. i like. haha. don't know since when i like crowded places. so crowded. it was hard to get a seat for dinner. so we ended up having to grab a bite at macdonalds. it's like why always macdonald? close to. what the fuck?

saw this puma shoes which is soooo attractive. it's like. Puma? lol. why puma? i also don't know. the colours are nice. pretty neat.

hey, we'll find that chain soon okay? keep finding.

there are things which i am definitely looking forward to.

today, i bought a little something.

this feeling is so different. so much better. it's best to tell the truth than to lie. even if the truth is so not pleasant to the ear, but do you think i care? i just love to tell the truth now. liar is my past profession.

and now i am being prowled by fatigue. the long bus trip home is terrific. i like it. don't ask me why. i don't know. i just like it.

i've been really slacking nowadays. i never do my homework and such. i did projects and some revision duh~ but i still think i am not putting in effort for the upcoming tests or even the exams that is going to take place in April.

if there's anyone that can make a difference, do you think that "anyone" is you?

what if one fine day something so abrupt happen, how are you going to face it?

how easy is it to actually go into a shop and tell those people in there that you want to get something?

is it really that hard to talk to people?

do i look unpleasant to the eye?

Yellow shop woman are eyeing at my buddy. good luck.

for each drop of rain that falls...